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Chapter 13 - Lonely Girl Hours

Tossing and turning I couldn't seem to get comfortable. Rolling over to look at the digital clock on the nearby nightstand it read 8:30. Groaning I realized I wasn't going to get any sleep because the anticipation was killing me.

What does he even want to talk about? Why did he even bring us here?

Looking up at the ceiling I began to play out different scenarios none of which were pleasant. What if he wants to take the twins away from me? This though caused my heart clench but the thought flew away because if he wanted me gone then I'd be gone already.

I wonder what he saved his contact name under on the twins phone. Dad? No, I doubt that because if that was the case the twins would have already asked about it. 

Ughhhh I hate when I over think things. It drives me absolutely crazy and yet I continued to overthink every possible topic that he could want to discuss.

By the time I knew it 11:20 rolled around I was trapped in an ocean of my own thoughts. Deciding that I wasn't going to wallow anymore I pulled the covers off of me and sat up on the edge of the bed. I need to kill some time I thought as I looked around the room in hopes of finding someway to entertain myself for the time being.

Standing up I walked to the bookshelf by the door. It was filled with books and oh how I loved to read. Running my finger tips across the spins of the books I couldn't help but admire the fact that the shelf was filled to the brim with books. Not a single space left unfilled with words.

A knock at the door pulled me out of my thoughts. Whipping my head around to look at the clock which read 11:59. I froze at my place in front of the bookshelf and looked over at the door.

I already knew it was him and that he wasn't going to wait for me to open the door and this proved to be true as the door slowly began to open.

Turning away fast I looked at the bookshelf. I mean maybe if I didn't move he wouldn't see me. Blending into the bookshelf was obviously not working as he made his way over to me. Holding my breath I heard the sound of his healed boots against the wood floor making his way ever so slowly my way. I couldn't help but glare at the bookshelf mad that it didn't absorb me into it.

Clearing his throat he began "We have much to discuss."

Not looking away from the bookshelf I muttered "I have nothing to say to you." Inwardly I had a million questions to ask but the stubborn side of me refused to cooperate.

I felt a hand on my shoulder before I was then shoved onto the bed. Looking up I see and angry Vladimir Furst.

"We have everything to discuss" he whispered angrily with fire in his eyes as he grabbed my wrist and held them above my head.

"Oh like what?" I played dumb. Not gonna lie he was fucking hot when he was mad.

"Oh how about how you up and left me taking away my chance to be a father to my children?" he said the last part in a whisper.

 He quickly went from angry to sad and then back to angry.

He continued "I gave you everything" he released my wrist and began to pace the room back and forth "I treated you like a fucking queen and then you just decided one day to throw that all away."

My blood began to boil "I THREW IT ALL AWAY?!?!" standing up I walked up to him looking him dead in the eyes "No you're the one who threw it all away when you decided to marry that slut."

I couldn't stop the hot tears that began to pour out of my eyes "Do you even realize how ugly it felt to hear that you'd be marrying her? When I loved you so much and gave you my mind, body, and soul."

His face was stoic as he simply listened saying nothing.

"It hurt even more that I couldn't hate you. I could never hate you" I said closing my eyes letting all the sadness I held in all these years flow out of me.

I felt arms wrap around my body enveloping me into a warm cocoon. Not opening my eyes I held onto him as tightly as I could.

Too sacred to look up at him and see his handsome face twisted into despair. I knew that if I saw then I would let him back into my heart.

Loosening my grip we began to pull away from each other. Turning around I pleaded with him "I'll properly introduce you to the twins tomorrow morning at breakfast."

"Thank you Am" he said hugging me from behind.

Shrugging him off I said "I'm not doing it for you I'm doing it for the twins" and with that I gestured to the door "I think we've discussed enough for tonight."

Looking at the floor I listened to his steps as he made his way to the door but he stopped mid step and I heard him turn on his heal.

"Am I want you to know that I love you and I wont ever stop feeling this way" and with that said he continued on his way out closing the door behind him.

Throwing myself onto the bed I began to feel heartbroken all over again. This was the Vlad I knew. The one who snuck into my room and night and told me he loved me no matter how many times I didn't say it back.

I was the only person who has ever seen that side of him. Feeling that familiar tug at my heart I sat up quickly.

Shaking those feeling out of my head I knew that falling back down that rabbit hole would only lead to my breaking my own heart and I didn't have time for that. I had my twins to worry about now.

Laying back down I looked at the ceiling groaning.

I wasn't getting any sleep tonight.

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