Dead To Me ( A Niam/Lirry Fan Fiction)

Chapter 1

Chapter 1- Games Don't Die

Harry's POV

1 month ago...

Come and rescue me, I'm burning can't you see...

I sat on the couch that day when the rain sang a song outside on the friday night and it was hard to say but I missed the nights when I wasn't alone at all. Those day were the days when I was complete even if it wasn't the way I wanted to be completed as, I was gone, he was what I wanted but the thing was... he didn't feel the same. I watched the raindrops hit the ground and disappear; they were just like him. He would come at the bad times or when I asked him to cause I was lonely or unhappy and help himself and i was dumb enough to let him do it. I got up and went into the kicthen to get a beer, grabbing it and closing the door of the refrig. I walked back into the living room and stared at the t.v. that was on. It was one way I could do things; I could end this thing that I had or just forget I thought that and keep this going with him. I wanted to be with him so bad that I cried every single time he left out of the room and went back to living his life as he was suppose to. I was nothing to him probably just someone he can do things with and walk away like it never happened. We were friends, we were but, he kissed me and I didn't stop him and we ended up this way, with the late night talks and the sleeping with each other but no one knew about it. He didn't want a relationship at all, he wanted something but did he feel anything anymore like he use to. I didn't want to be ' friends with benifits', I wanted to be ' lovers', that was all I wanted.

*Why was I so stupid to not see what he was doing?

I am I that dumb? He doesn't love me, he never did!

I want this so bad but what if I'm the only one?*

Come and rescue me, only you can set me free...

I slammed the bottle with the bitter substance still in it on the wooden table, staring at it as it shattered every in the reach, I was so mad, so confused that I had no clue of what I was doing to myself. I was never like this but he made me this way. I threw the rest of the bottle that was still in my hand on the wooden table as well and broke it as well as I stood up and looked down at it. I'm worthless. I walked slowly into the other room where I kept my picture at, and stared at them, it was crazy that I always found myself in this room, I was in it all the time lately but it was only way I could mend my pain. I walked over the side where his pictures were, I took a look at all of them and my focus was brought to one in particular.

[Liam-Harry-3-Larry-liam-payne-22148894-500-224]

I trusted you in every way but, not enough to make you stay...

I picked it up and stared at it, my eyes looked over it and expected it, we were so happy and that was what I wanted but he didn't and that was going to kill me slowly. I threw it down to the floor with all my power that I had, I was mad about it, I couldn't take it no more. I stared at the rest of the picture that were of me and him and threw them down too. I had to.

" You don't care! You never did! No one Cares!"

I felt arms wrap around me and stopping me from throwing any down to the floor. I was trying to stop but I couldn't, I want to keep going, I had three on the floor already so why not the rest. I start to move in his arms again and yell and scream anything but he wouldn't let go. 

" Let me go! Let go! Let go! Let..." I stopped and started to cry, I couldn't do this to myself and all that I ever did, I couldn't take this the most. He always came to me when I wasn't stable, that was so hard to keep away from him and not go to him like before. I kneeled to the floor and cried harder as the tears came out onto his hands. He pulled me into his arms more saying 'shh' and ' don't cry' into my ears. 

I pushed away from him and stared at him," Get away from m-me!"

" Harry."

" You don't.. you don't like me at all! So why a-are you here?!"

" I do-"

" Are you sure?"

" I do, I love you Harry but-"

" But what?"

I saw how he looked at me and then looked at the necklace around his neck. I stared at it and snatched it from around his neck. I opened my hands up and then looked at the words that were on it:

Niall and Liam 

' Love you 4evea'

I dropped it in his lap and ran walked away from him, he was not saying anything when I did that. I pushed myself not to cry and get even more attached to him than I already was but it was so hard. I got into the room and laid my face on the pillow, it was what covered my face for being so stupid. I was crying or was I? I couldn't tell anymore, I was thinking about how dumb I was. I was dumb, he was with someone else that loved him but that Niall person would never love him more than I. No one would because I was the only one that could every love him and make him happy even if I had competition. I felt his hand on my shoulder as I laid there still on my bed. I thought he had left but he was still there. I turned to him when I heard a sniff and stared into his brown eyes, he was crying about this maybe not about me.

" Harry, I love you but, I love Niall more?

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Turn around, I lost my ground...

My heart was broken into too many pieces and they couldn't be put back together, there were some that went through the crack in the floor that wouldn't be found. I turned my head away from; I didn't want him to see my face as I might start to cry infront of him. He grabbed my chin and stared into my green eyes.

" I might love him, but I want you right now."

And with that, he pressed his lips onto mines and that was what made me fall for him once again. I was so stupid but, at the moment, I didn't feel like I was. I was with him and that was all that mattered at that moment.

Rescue Me....

A/N- Song is in italic and it's Rescue me by Tokio Hotel. The thoughts of Harry are in Bold and stars.