Wild At Heart (Bieber Love Story)

Chapter 24 - Sometimes It's Hard To Face Reality ...

Savannah

The next few days passed in a blur. Justin and I spent a lot of time with his family and friends excluding Jason. The time to return home arrived and I couldn’t bear the thought of leaving Justin again. My father and I still had a lot of unresolved issues to settle and I wasn’t looking forward to that.

Justin and I were at the airport. He looked so sad and I was waiting patiently for him to tell me what was upsetting him so much.

‘I don’t know when I’ll see you again,’ he murmured as he squeezed my hand. It was time for me to climb into his private jet. ‘I go on tour again in a few weeks and tour only ends in December.’

Justin would only be able to see me in seven months.

‘Maybe you could come see me on tour,’ he lowered his gaze shyly.

‘I’d love to come see you on tour,’ I smiled. ‘Just let me know when it’s most convenient for you.’

‘Why are we always saying goodbye?’

‘I guess that’s just the way it’s meant to be. Next year I’ll be studying full time and I don’t know when I’ll ever get to see you,’ a tear escaped my eye and cascaded down my cheek.

‘Please don’t cry,’ he wiped my tear away with his thumb.

‘I’ll try not to,’ I moved forward and hugged him. The pilot seemed to be getting impatient. ‘I’ll see you soon,’ I smiled at him. ‘Take care of yourself,’ I kissed him and walked up the stairs to the plane.

The next morning, I landed in Cape Town. Jack was at the airport to pick me up. He was grinning and he seemed very excited about something. I realized that my bad mood shouldn’t put a damper on his mood.

‘Why are you so excited?’ I asked curiously.

‘We have a South African family staying at the safari,’ he grinned. ‘They’re from Cape Town,’ he smiled.

‘And why are you so happy about that? We’ve had South African families stay with us before,’ I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion.

‘They have a daughter and she’s a year younger than me. She’s great,’ he smiled. ‘I can’t wait for you to meet her.’

‘I’ll meet her tomorrow,’ I murmured.

‘Why not today?’

‘I’d just like to settle in today if you don’t mind. I’m sorry that you’ve had to do everything by yourself these past few days but I promise I’ll help with everything I can from tomorrow.’

‘You don’t have to worry about that ‘Annah,’ he kissed my cheek. ‘You never did tell me what happened between you and Justin that one night,’ he hinted.

‘It’s a long story,’ I sighed.

‘We’ve got an hour left of the drive home,’ he chuckled.

I told Jack the entire story starting from the day we landed in Canada. Soon enough, the hour was up and we were home. Jack dropped me off at my cottage and told me he’d see me later.

I unpacked my suitcase and did three loads of laundry. I also cleaned out my entire cottage. I was exhausted but I couldn’t go to sleep just yet. I figured that Jack would probably come make me some dinner but when he didn’t show up by eight thirty, I made myself a sandwich and ate it in front of the fire.

Tomorrow would be a difficult day and I wished things would go well.

The next morning, I showered and made my way to reception. I was hungry but I couldn’t eat until I’ve spoken to my father. Thinking about talking to him was just making me queasy.

My father was on the phone when I arrived. I sat in the chair by the window. A few minutes later, he ended the phone call and looked at me expectantly. I wondered if he thought I was here to apologize and tell him that he was right.

‘Hi dad,’ I mumbled nervously.

‘Savannah,’ he nodded his head in acknowledgement.

‘Are you still angry with me?’ I asked curiously. ‘Do you still not approve of my relationship?’

‘Of course I’m angry, you left the country without my permission,’ he glared at me.

‘I’m sorry,’ I said sadly and turned around to leave.

‘Where do you think you’re going?’ he shouted.

‘I’m going to help Jack make breakfast,’ I murmured.

‘You should. That boy has been doing all your work,’ he said in a condescending tone.

I didn’t reply, I just walked to the kitchen. Jack wasn’t alone. The girl he was talking about was with him. They were slow dancing in the middle of the kitchen. I smiled. If there was any one who deserved a great relationship, it was Jack. I decided to wait outside the kitchen in case he needed my help. I exited through the back door and sat down on the porch steps.

This was reality. My dad was angry with me, my best friend was trying to get a girlfriend, my mother was no longer in this world and the boy I loved was a million miles away. I had never felt so alone before. It was very cold but I ignored it. I wished I would get cold enough that I’d become numb. I guess this is how it will be next year. I would be alone in the city. Some people wish for a clean slate. Going to a place where no one knows who you are just so you can reinvent yourself may seem like a good idea sometimes. I knew it wouldn’t be everything that I hoped for. Whether I went to school in Cape Town or Chicago, it wouldn’t matter. It would be the exact same thing. I would be alone, surrounded by strangers.

The only thing that would make going to university worthwhile is getting my degree. Six years of being alone is a long time. People may argue and say that I would make friends in university. Sure I could make new friends but how could they ever compete with people I’ve known my whole life. It takes a long time to get to know someone.

I didn’t understand how things could go so wrong in such a short amount of time. I just wanted everything to be okay again. Sometimes it’s hard to face reality.

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Hello my lovelies :)

This chapter is named after the song 'Hard 2 Face Reality' by Justin Bieber :)

I know this chapter is short but last week's chapter was really long lol ... Next week's will be normal length ... :) 

Thank you all for reading :)

Love you all so much!

Imaan xx