sunshine // fillie

- four -

"in nature, nothing is perfect and everything is perfect. trees can be contorted, bent in weird ways, and they're still beautiful"

millie

"whatcha guys doing?" sadie broke the comfortable silence between finn and i. finn was so different. he made me feel like i belonged, like something about this place is where i am meant to be. 

"looking at the sky" i smiled, knowing caleb and sadie were probably giving each other weird looks, however they didn't say anything.

"it's only nine, and it's friday night. my parents aren't home and niether is nick..." finn trailed off.

"are you saying what i think you're saying? caleb climbed exitedly into the passenger seat of the car, leaving finn and i to sit in the back. "video games?!" caleb said, shutting the car door.

"or... you can all come over and watch a movie or something" finn chuckled.

"I don't have to be home for another hour and a half" i shrugged in agreement as caleb and sadie did the same.

soon enough we had reached a house only four or five down from caleb's, we were at finn's. i slid out of the car, finn ahead of us, unlocking the front door. as i walked in i admired the house, it was big. as beautiful as it was however it seemed vacant, empty almost. it seemed like no one even lived here at all.

finn must have caught the expression and body language of what i was thinking. "my parents don't really live here. i mean, they do. but they have to be in the city so much for work that they usually just stay in their apartment there. and my brother's in college. it's mostly just me" he explained. he smiled at me but it seemed sad, finn seemed lonely.

"oh" was all i could say in that moment, i felt a pang of sadness for finn. i was so close to my parents that i didn't want to imagine a life where they were barely around. it made me feel grateful.

"well i mean if you ever get lonely, i'll be there" i smiled and looked away from his kind eyes and into the rest of the house. i spotted the fireplace that was positioned against the front wall of the living area, and atop it was an array of pictures.

i walked over and looked at each one, baby pictures of the handsome teenager i had just met, pictures of happy looking people who i assumed was his parents, and another boy who resembled finn, but also appeared to be completely different.

"oh god, these are so embarassing" finn laughed as he walked up behind me, caleb and sadie in the kitchen making popcorn. i couldn't help but wonder if they were dating.

"they're sweet" i smiled, not turning around. "are caleb and sadie dating?" i blurted out, swirling around to face finn. he was closer than i thought.

"they're not official, but pretty much" finn replied, hands in his pockets, taking a subtle step back.

"have you ever dated anyone?" i blurted out again, instantly feeling embarassed. what am i doing?

"kind of. i mean i dated this one girl in junior year, we were on and off, though. i never really liked her." he admitted, not holding much back from me. "you?" 

I coughed, feeling really embarassed i started this conversation. 

"no" i said quietly, glancing down at my white socks.

"oh" he said just as quietly.

"we made popcorn!" sadie yelled as her and caleb walked into the room, bringing a happier, less tense energy in with them. finn jumped at the sudden noise, i just blinked.

"so, what are we watching?" 

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finn

she's never had a boyfriend. she's never had a boyfriend. she's never had a boyfriend. this was the only thing ringing through my ears during the movie we were watching, the breakfast club.

i just met this girl not even twenty four hours ago and i found myself sitting on my couch wishing i could know every part of her.

i imagined myself listening to music with her, driving around town letting salad days bless our ears and holding her hand. i imagined teaching her how to play guitar and laughing as she tried and failed, and tried again. i imagined many more nights watching movies with her, maybe even cuddling up next to her. i imagined maybe even kissing her, feeling her lips on mine.

"finn?" i snapped out of my imaginative state to the sound of millie's tired voice. 

"will you drive me home? sadie and caleb fell asleep" she glanced over at the sleeping couple, curled up on the couch, finding warmth in one another. i wished, for only a moment, that that could be millie and i.

"yeah, yeah. sure" i smiled tiredly, sitting up from the couch, her doing the same. 

"thank you" she said in a normal leveled speaking voice as we stepped outside into the cold air. "i forgot how cold it was" she shivered, hugging herself for warmth. 

"give me one second" i ran back into the house, grabbing the black hoodie i had worn earlier and racing back outside. "here" i handed her the warm hoodie, slightly winded from running.

"oh, thanks" she blushed as she pulled the sweater over her head and over her body.

"it's a little big" she blushed again, giggling.

"it looks great" i smiled as i walked infront of her, leading her to my car. 

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millie

 i couldn't help but blush when i thought about finn and all i had gotten in only one day. i felt like i had known him for a lifetime already. as he started the car, the song time to pretend by the one and only MGMT started playing. hearing it i instantly looked up from my lap to finn, who had also looked straight at me when he recognized the song. 

we didn't have to say anything, it was a moment where nothing needed to be said, it was just pure bliss. he started to drive after i had given him my address, us not speaking, just enjoying the music and each other's company. i hoped we would have many more nights like this.

before i knew it, we had gotten to my house. i hated that this moment had to end, but i was grateful for it anyway.

"thanks, for the ride. and for being so nice to me on my first day" i chuckled, looking up to meet his eyes.

"thank you" he spoke softer, making my heart skip a beat. i must really like this boy.

"for?" i asked, confusion apparent in my tone.

"being so cool" he smirked, making me blush. "maybe we can do something sunday?" he suggested, making my heart skip another beat and making me suddenly nervous.

"that sounds wonderful" i smiled, speaking softly like he had done just before.

"i need your number" he spoke up. he handed me his phone as i added my contact for him. i put my name as mills, exactly what he had called me earlier. 

"text me, finnie" i smiled and blushed, climbing out of the car. i noticed him blushing too, as i walked up to my house feeling on top of the world.