sunshine // fillie

- seven -

"this is our decision, to live fast and die young. we got the vision, now let's have some fun"

finn

"i dare you" gaten nearly slurred. "to go in to that closet, and spend seven minutes in heaven with finn" he finished, still facing millie. i felt my heart lurch in my chest.

did he just? my heart was beating fast as i felt her squeeze my hand. the alcohol was making my mind feel lighter, even though my heart was beating at a fast pace. she looked at me with her beautiful deep eyes, and suddenly i felt alright.

"c'mon mills, do it" sadie cheered her on from the couch, seated next to caleb. i felt my body tingle in excitement and fear of what millie was thinking.

before another thought could enter my mind i felt my arm being pulled up to stand, so i did. millie smiled at me as she rolled her eyes playfully at gaten, and led me into the closet.

was she really doing this? did she really want to kiss me again? i know i wanted her, but i couldn't tell what she wanted.

"listen, you don't have to do anything if you don't-" millie's soft spoken words were cut off by the touch of my lips against hers.

"i want to" i whispered as i let our lips seperate for only a second. she nodded, a sudden desperate rage igniting inside of her for more. she wrapped her arm tightly around my neck and pulled me into her.

kissing her sparked a feeling inside of me that was indescribable. it was like we held all the power in the world between us, yet i felt calm, like she was my ocean, her touches sending emotion over me like soft waves brushing the warm sand.

kissing her made my heart beat in complete lust for this gorgeous girl craving my lips. kissing millie was like floating through the universe, discovering things within me i never knew could exist. 

i didn't know it was possible to find someone so significant in only a week. she was beautiful from the moment i laid eyes on her, her eyes that i would soon fall into focused on the paper in front of her.  

throughout the past week i've dived deeper into her soul as she has with mine and i have discovered so much yet so little about this magnificent girl i never wanted to let go of. i felt like i had known her for a century, yet there was still so much to learn.

it's an extrodinary thing, what i was feeling in that small closet off the hallway in my house. this was the first time i had considered the thought of loving millie brown, this was the first time i realized that i did love millie brown.

"millie?" i whispered against her lips after these thoughts swarmed my mind.

"finnie?" she whispered back, both our eyes still closed.

"i think that i love you" i whispered even quieter, knowing i was sounding crazy. i felt her smile, wide. i had my hand softly touching her cheek, still failing to open my eyes.

"i love you too" she smiled even wider. i shot my eyes open to see her beautiful eyes staring at mine, my heart fluttering.

"and your sunshiney eyes" she smiled, resting her forehead on mine, making my smile grow in admiration for this perfect girl, her arm still around my neck.