sunshine // fillie

- five -

"we can go if you wanna go anywhere, i'll take you there"

millie

today was exactly a week since I had moved here and met the amazing group of people i was now a part of. 

sadie is great, she always asks me to hangout and go to the mall and do things that i don't think she's used to. she confides in me and tells me things that i don't think the rest of us knows, i think she likes having another girl around to understand. i confide in her too, i've really grown to feel close to sadie sink.

noah has become a bigger part of my life in only a week than i thought, he is so easy to talk to and makes life seem so much easier and simpler when he's around. he makes me feel at home.

caleb tells me about sadie and often asks me for advice, i think he's also thankful to have another girl around to ask for advice. he's so good to sadie and he has the biggest heart, i can tell whenever he messages me even about the simplest things, like what colour roses to get for his now-official-girlfriend, red or yellow? always, yellow. like sunshine. 

gaten makes me laugh more than anyone, he can say the stupidest thing at the best time and make me laugh. laughing makes me feel weightless, and gaten knows it. i know he has things going on behind the jokes and the smiles, but i haven't grown that close to him, yet. maybe one day he can confide in me like sadie does, and how caleb does. 

and finn, oh finn wolfhard. he has made my life a million times better since i've moved here. whenever i look at him uninvited butterflies appear in my stomach and it's nearly impossible to wipe my silly smile off my face. he's shown me his world, and i want to be a part of it. the music, the laughs, the car rides, the moments where we just look up at the great abyss that we call the sky and let our lives drift away for only a moment. he shows me a whole new universe yet holds me to earth all at once. being with him makes me feel a way that i've never felt before, and i love that feeling. i definitely have a crush on finn wolfhard. sometimes i believe he feels the same, but sometimes he drifts off into the sky and i see hurt in his eyes and i can't help but feeling like i'm taking him away from his own life, and although i could look into his eyes all day, i can never tell if he likes me the way i like him.

today was another friday, tonight we are all going to finn's house. his parents are out of the house again and his brother is at school, so it's perfect.

"hey, mills" finn smiled as he rounded the corner of the school hallway, starting to walk in sync beside me. 

"hey finn" i smile back, looking straight ahead. 

"ready to go? i thought we could stop somewhere first" he smiled even wider, as i furrow my eyebrows and look up at him in confusion.

"sure, where?" i ask, still confused as to where we could be going. he doesn't answer, instead he just smirks and keeps walking, letting me fall behind. he swings the school doors open, walking smoothly through the parking lot to his car.

"where are we going?" i ask again as i close the car door, shivering again.

"what's with you never bringing a sweater?" he giggles, reaching in the backseat. 

"here" he hands me the same black sweater i had worn last week when he drove me home.

"thanks" i smile gratefully, slipping on the sweater and instantly feeling warmer.