Peyton rushes next to her lifeless daughter and shakes her hoping she will wake up. Tears streaming down her face. I look at her, She stares back and gives me a big hug sobbing into my shoulder. I stand up and walk over to Madi who is standing in the doorway with a confused look in her face.
"Hey Madi." I say with tears rolling down my face and I reach out to hug her. She hugs me and nuzzles her warm little face up close to my chest as I kneel down in front of her so we are at the same height.
"Vee, Is Nikita gonna be alright?" She says as she goes and sits on the end of Nikita's bed.
I have no idea how to reply to that because I know that she is gone. She has no pulse.
"I don't know sweetie. She will be fine soon though because Mummy is gonna take good care of her. Okay." I say as I walk over to Nikita and stroke her head and kiss her on the forehead. At this point Mrs Garcia has called my Mum and she has come over to the house in hope to comfort me and Peyton.
"Mummy!" I say as she walks through the door. I sprint up to her and I completely break down in tears.
"I know babe. I know." She strokes my hair and kisses me on the forehead. Peyton stands up and stares at my Mum. Tears are brewing in her eyes and she stands frozen staring at my Mum. My Mum runs over to her and they embrace eachother and Peyton falls to the ground in tears. Madi begins to cry and cry. I don't know what to do so Madi kisses Nikita on the fore head and I pick her up and take her into her room next to Sofia. I stroke her head and she begins to drift off to sleep.
Two hours later my Mum and Mrs Garcia are sitting in the lounge talking and my Mum is trying her best to comfort her. Madi is fast asleep in her room. I have been sitting next to Nik for a while now and I am still sitting their stroking her forehead hoping she will awaken from this. She doesn't. I start to sing a little lullaby to her. Nothing seems to be working. I lie on her bed next to her. I don't want to leave her ever again. I begin to tell her about School and how much I need her, Nothing seems to be working. I know she is gone.
I turn and look at her bedside table.
The blade. A few pills scattered on the table and an empty pill bottle. A bottle of some white liquid and a cup. A note as well.
I open up the envelope and I begin to read the note. It says:
To My Dearest Family,
Please forgive me for all my mistakes I have made. I tried my best and I am sorry I wasn't the perfect daughter that you wanted. Mum I want you to know it isn't your fault you are the most beautiful and kindest peron I have ever met. I hoped one day I would grow up like you. I hoped I would be able to impress you and make you feel proud of me. I love you Mum, I will be watching over you.
Madi I hope that one day someone tells you what happened with Dad. You were the best little sister I could ever ask for. I want you to promise me something that you will look after Mummy and your new big sister (Violeta) for me as well as that adorable little cutie Sofia. Okay? Be a big and brave girl for me now. I love you.
Vee, I love you. You were my other half and pretty much my rock throughout life. Stay Strong Beautiful. I want you to look after our Mums, and sisters. Be the big sister to Madi that I could never be to her. I want you to be the one to tell Mum and Madi about the stuff with Dad. I know I shouldn't blame him but he pushed me over the edge even though I was hanging on by a thread. I will love you forever and always, So stay strong baby girl x You were my inspiration to life and I am sorry I never got to tell you how much I love you.
I would like a funeral if that isn't to much to ask. I would like it to be happy and joyful. I want it to have fairy lights and flowers just like I planned my Wedding. I want to be dressed in a white dress with a flower crown. I only ask for one thing. I would really appreciate it if Dad was not invited to my funeral. That may sound rude but I don't want him near you guys ever again.
Be Safe my beautys! I love you all xx
-Nikita xox
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A Lost Soul...
Fiksi RemajaShe was my best friend. She was my sister but worst of all she was my other half. She's now gone. Taken to early but did she want to leave me?
