Clashed

Testing the waters

Jonahs pov

It's been almost a month since Lexie took off with my daughter. I'm pretty sure she's about two months old right now and I haven't seen her in a while. I can't even get in touch with her and I'm trying so hard not to lose my mind because she has my fucking daughter hostage.

I'm pretty sure she's staying at her cousins house. He's the only one who's been in touch with her since she had the baby. Her family totally abandoned her and I don't want her to think that I abandoned her when she gets older because that's not the case I wanna see my baby girl I love her. She's so beautiful and I'm a father and I know I'm only 15 but I love that baby.

I try to keep my mind off of her but I have pictures of her and us around my room. I try not to stare at them because I can't actually hold her but everything is still where it was. Her crib and her changing table. I can't believe she just got up and left without any notice any goodbye.

I was about to get in the shower to get ready. Tonight Blazey and I are going on a real date. He asked me out to one the other night and I don't know how I feel about doing this. We're gonna be in public and I'm worried about what people are gonna be thinking. I'm not ready for people to know I'm gay or whatever I am.

I pushed the shower curtain over and stepped into the hot water. I got a tattoo the other day from my boy. It's a cross on my forearm with Emily's name written in it and her birth date. She's my first born and she'll probably be the only baby I have if I'll ever get to see her again.

I dried my hair off with the towel and wrapped it around my waist and went into my room. My door wasn't closed all the way and my door opened a little and Kj was standing their giggling at me. I pulled my boxers on and opened my arms for him.

"Uncle J" He smiled

"Hey buddy" I smiled

I pulled some of these light wash ripped jeans on and a true religion black shirt. Then I picked out some black Jordan 11s and decided I would just put a hat on my hair. It was a lighter brown then blazeys but I didn't like it very much. Mine was kinda shorter but I almost always had a backwards hat over it. I sprayed my whole body in cologne and checked myself over before Nevaeh came running into my room.

"Oh god I didn't think he would be in here I couldn't find him" She said breathless

She was so pregnant and sometimes I wonder if she's gonna have him on the floor. I don't know much about what's going on with her and Austin because she doesn't really talk about it a lot and I wanna help because I'm her brother but she has a lot on her plate and so do I.

"Yeah he's fine don't worry" I said putting my chain around my neck and throwing my earrings in

"J I'm worried" She sighed, coming into my room

"About what?" I asked looking at her through the mirror

"Austin has his court date but he's supposed to come home the same week I'm due. How am I gonna do this without him? I can't have a baby with no one their. But I won't have a choice" She explained nervously

"Vee I'll be their holding your hand just like I was when Kj was born. That's my baby nephew in their and I already love him" I reassured her

"I know your gonna be. But this is his baby J and I can't do this alone again. I just can't. We're not even together and I don't know why I keep fucking this up" She cried

I felt bad and went over to hug my older sister. She was crying into her hands and I hugged her. So what she was pregnant again and she's only 17. She's a great mom and she's gonna be a good mom to both of them. She doesn't need no guy to help her she can do it all on her own.

"You can do this all on your own sis really your good. Your a better parent then me" I chuckled

"Your just starting out though you'll get better" She smiled "are you going on a date?" She asked

"Uh sorta" I said scratching the back of my neck

She didn't know about Blazey. Nobody knew but Joey but we were so high on cocaine that night I don't even think he remembers. I wasn't ready to be telling anyone yet so I don't even know how this date is gonna go. But I'm gonna do it and test the waters while I'm sober.

"Have fun then" She smiled

I left the house and hopped in the car. I didn't have a license I was gonna be 16 soon but I haven't done drivers ed. I just drive without one all the time. I was supposed to meet Blazey at his house. So I drove their and waited in the driveway for a second before I texted him.

To Blazey- I'm outside

From Blazey- come inside

I parked the car and went inside his house. I didn't see him around but their was about 4 girls in the kitchen running around hitting each other and doing their hair. I didn't know who these girls were but I just stood their.

Blazey came down the stairs a few seconds later and he was fixing his hair. It was kinda curly and it was dam ass cute. He was even dressed cute even though he had sweats on he was so cute. He smelt mad good when he hugged me.

"Your looking cute" I smirked

"Not as cute as you dam, look at my baby"

Baby did he just call me the B word? I can't believe he said that. When did we become official? Or when did he think we were together. I don't even know how I feel about this and I'm getting worried.

"Who are the girls?" I said changing the subject

"Oh I never mentioned I had four sisters" He laughed

"Don't tell me your the youngest?" I chuckled

"Yup isn't that fun to be the youngest especially when the rest are girls" he sighed

"Do any of them have a baby?" I asked

"Yeah my two oldest sisters are married"

"Well at least they were married before they had a baby" I frowned

"Hey I don't care that you have a daughter I wanna meet her actually" He said trying to cheer me up

"Yeah I just gotta get her back from my crazy ex" I sighed

"Lets go have fun on this date. Get your mind off things" He smiled putting his arm around my shoulder