are we there yet? ~ Reddie oneshots

Denile

A/n: very short cringe chapter and kinda dark so. I also don't have much time to write 3 books, but I'll try to update this as much as I can.

Chapter aesthetic: this v sad picture I found

Me and Richie are "best friends" but it's confusing sometimes.

I like him.. uh.. more then just a friend but I don't know how he feels.

One minute he's holding my hand and calling me baby... but when the losers show up he starts making fun of me and pointing out my flaws.

I just deal with it because I like him.

Yesterday me and Richie were walking to school and he just grabbed my hand sending me into a mess. Then, he randomly stopped and kissed my cheek and forehead calling me "his and only his"

But soon after we arrived at school, and I'm not even shitting you.. ONE girl walked by and he immediately drops my hand looking away acting like I didn't know him.

That made me lose it.

I grabbed his hand and intertwined our fingers tight.

I felt him start to panic soon after.

He started shaking his hand whispering in desperation

"Eddie... Eddie...EDDIE! LET GO!"

He hissed still shaking his hand manically. Hell no I wasn't. He shouldn't be scared of calling himself gay.

"Richie, you can't just bottle up your sexuality, you've got to be CONFIDENT!" I whispered back.

The day went on and whenever I saw Richie I held his hand.

We figured out by the end of the day, nobody in Derry, cared about being gay.

That night, I got a note from Richie.

Hey Ed's.

Thanks for showing me to be my true self around other people. Now, I can date guys without feeling scared. Thank you so much for letting me practice on you. I'm now going out with that kid Franklin at our school.
I'm sorry if you're mad at me. But I can't help it. I like you as a friend. But I'll always be there for you.

Love Richie

I sat on his bed re-reading the letter over and over again dumb-stricken.

When what had happened finally registered, fat tears began spilling out of my eyes and plopped onto the note making the ink run.

I ended up dying alone without Richie by my side like I had imagined so many times in my head. I died of heart disease on December 2nd 1994

Years after Eddie died, Franklin left Richie and Richie was all alone and depressed.

Richie wished he had stayed with
Eddie. But it was too late now.

Eddie was gone but Richie always had denied his death.

He's not dead, he's probably pranking me and he moved to California or something.

He's just seeing how I would react if he had died

He's going to show up at my door any day now.

But Eddie never did.