Mist Falls

Chapter: 12 Lies and Pain

Authors note

I had a lot of trouble writing this chapter, I kept going back and forth on if I should post it or scrap it and start again but it is part of the story that will come in later, so please if you are of the faint of heart stop reading now.

Trigger Warnings

I slowly drag myslef away from the darkness I can hear there voices, I'm lying on my front everything seems hazy like a dream, I hear Mike telling them how many times I was stabbed and where, why is he telling them, shouldn't I be the one to tell them if and when I am ready I have no control left.

No control over my body, my mind, my fear at least I'm not in pain right now, why I should be right but I'm not I just feel angry so angry and then I hear Mike telling them how he made them bring me back and I feel a snap inside the walls I keep such a tight hold on are crumbling around me so fast I can't keep up fuck.

"What the fuck do you mean they said to let me go and you told them to bring me back," I shout as stand, I'm so dizzy Phoenix tries to help but I push him away and pull the cover around myself.

"How could you do that, you could have been free, I am a burden now, I live in the darkness alone and you let me go there I could have been with them, all this time suffering, I could have been with them," I scream well as loud as I can with a broken voice as well as a broken heart and soul.

"Winter you need to calm down and lay back down you shouldn't even be awake," Mike says calmly but I can see the hurt and an anger on his face but right now I don't care.

"You have no idea what you've done, I wanted to die and you made me stay and now evey fucking night I relive that nightmare every night," I scream at him he goes to grab me and I back up though the door, "Don't fucking touch me, none of you touch me."

He looks so hurt the others are on the feet as Fox comes up behind me I haven't seen him since the day I got there, he stops and looks between us before standing next to Mike with a frown,

"What's going on I just got back from work and why is Zeek smashing up logs in the front?" he says and smiles at me, I ignore him.

"Why bring me here, when you could have been free, I will never be free and you have sentenced me to a life of pain, you have these boys who love you like a brother and you still kept me here," I say tears stream down Mike face and mine the others boys just looked shocked and Fox moves toward me.

"Winter let me help you," he says so low I almost don't hear him he takes anouther step and I step back.

"Don't touch me!" I scream again. I feel dizzy and a little sick, but the anger I feel washes thought me in waves of burning heat.

"You said you didn't remember the dreams you lied to me Winter!" Mike shouts over me, I just wanted to spare him the pain of something neither of us could fix, "And where did that tattoo come from, and is that a god dam tongue piercing."

"And you lied to me, but I didn't want you to worry anymore than you where and the doctors you made me go to couldn't help and the pills where making me ill," I shrug I'm so angry so hurt and confused my head is spinning like a top, "But you where selfish I should have died, I wasn't suppose to live even the doctors new it, and yes it is and I love the tattoo its my body."

"I didn't want to fucking lose you, I already lost mum and dad I needed you!" he shouts back and I glare at him, "If you had never met them none of this would have ever happened."

And there it is the real reason Mum and Dad are dead because some boy wanted me and I didn't want him, he's right I know it in my heart but to hear him say it hurts all the more.

"Mike stop," Fox shouts at him pushing him a little as the others come to stand in front of him.

"No he's right I always knew it, is that why you made the bring me back, because trust me everyday is a new form of hell," I say looking right into his all the anger ebbs away from them and he a look of pure guilt covers his face.

"Winter, I didn't mean it I love you so much and I'm so tried please forgive me please," he begs, "I never blamed you those boys where deranged."

"I forgive you for that only because its true but i will never forgive you for bringing me back," I shout, I can't and I won't.

"I made them because I love you and we need each other we have no blood family left," he shouts back at me but that really hits a cord, the things I've been keeping from him flash though my mind stabbing me in the heart, but with the pain comes more anger.

About three mouths after it all happened I found out I was pregnant I was scared at first but then I was happy something good had come of what happened but I was still healing and a couple of nightmares later I lost the baby, it was to much on my body and I was to young, I went to the hospital the day after and they confirmed I had lost it, Mike never new and the anger only boils more.

"You almost had blood family again almost but I lost that to," I shout at him, I hope he hurts as much as I do in that moment I hope feels every pain I have, "You have me living a nightmare."

"What the fuck are you talking about?" he screams at me but I see Phoenix and Jett out of the corner of my eye there faces show understanding but I don't dare look at the other two.

"I was pregnant and I lost it, I lost everything not just Mum and Dad I lost myself only to be brought back and lost even more are you happy now, you may as well have sent me to hell yourself!" I scream and as the last of the fight leaves me and my head spins like a top.

I stumble toward the stairs and began to fall as two big hands catch me and hold me in there arms.

"I have you slabyy svet (little light)," he whispers into my hair.

I don't want to be held right now but I have nothing left to fight with nothing left to give me heart is broken and in return I hurt my own brother I didn't mean to, I never wanted him to know about the baby I am so stupid.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck I'm so sorry, so sorry Winter," Mike says I can hear the pain in his voice, "I have to go out for a bit will you look after her for me?"

"We will come with you," Phoenix says and I hear keys being grabbed.

"Get some rest, we will look after him," one of the twins says as he leaves and I hear the door close.

I even open my eyes I just lay in Zeek arms as he moves around until he sits down with me on his lap.

"Should we put her in bed?" Fox whispers as I feel him put a hand on my leg.

"Nynt she needs us right now even if she says other," he whispers back and his big arms tighten around me.

"Even she says otherwise you mean," one of the twins says there voice are the same and without seeing there eyes I can't tell them apart.

"Same," Zeek says before laying me against his chest, "Jett get some water in case she wakes up."

"What are we going to do?" Fox whispers and as Zeek snuggles into me.

"She will be ok, she is broken but time and love will fix," he says and I wish I could believe him, I wish I could have that much faith or even any hope, but there is no hope for me I'm already dammed, "But movie in."

That the last thing I hear before I pass out in Zeek warm arms with a fluffy blanket covering me and Fox holding my legs, I just wish I had never told Mike all that stuff he didn't need to know I smash everything around me, maybe I should leave.