Hellboy (Lil Peep Fanfiction)

💜Chapter Fifty One💜

+Jamie's Pov+

"Why would she do this? Elizabeth what were you guys talking about? I need you to tell me." "I-I don't know if she wants me to-." "I need you to tell me what the fuck you were talking about!"

She squinted her eyes closed and started crying harder than she already was and shaking. Tracy grabbed me and took me out of the hospital.

"You can not yell at her like that." "Why?! I need to know why the fuck my best friend tried to kill herself if she isn't already dead!" "Baby girl we can not think like that. Peep's probably already thinking like that." "She cut at her vein! You can not escape that! Let's be honest!" "I need you to calm down." "No! I'm not going to calm down! What are they going to do to her after this?! Send her to one of those nut houses! She's not crazy! She's in pain! And I wasn't there when SHE FUCKING NEEDED ME!!! EVEN THOUGH I PROMISED HER I ALWAYS WOULD BE! I HAVE FAILED! WHAT THE FUCK AM I GONNA DO IF SHE DIES?!? WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?! FUCK!!!!"

I dropped to the floor and just started breaking down. Tracy fell next to me and held me. I wrapped my arms around him and cried into his chest.

"I need her." "I know. Shhhh. She'll be fine. Its gonna be okay."

I continued to cry in his chest and he just held me.

+Lil Peep's Pov+

"You okay Liz?" "N-No. I was right in front of her. I could've done something but she did it so fast. I couldn't even stop her." "Its not your fault. We just have to pray that its all gonna be okay." "But what if it turns out not to be?"

I looked at her sadly. I was hoping for the best. Even if she had a little sign of life left. I needed my princess or I don't know what I'd do. A doctor came out and looked at his clipboard.

"Stephanie Rose Coleman?"

Me and Elizabeth stood up. We walked towards him. He looked at us with a sad face.

"We don't know if she's gonna make it. She isn't really showing any pulse. The pulse we do have is very weak. It'll have to take a miracle for her to fully be back operational. She also might have to stay here for a week or so."

I sighed and wiped my hands over my eyes.

"Can we see her?" "Yes. She's in room 325."

He walked away then I looked at Elizabeth. We went to the room together. Both of us not even wanting to see Stephanie in the condition she's in.

+Stephanie's Pov+

I woke up on soft grass. My mom, dad, and siblings standing around me. I jumped up.

"Where am I? What are you guys doing here?" "Well sweetie..I don't know how to tell you this but..you cut your vein, but not deep enough to the point where you could die instantly. Its up to you now." "What is?" "Whether you wanna stay with us or go back to them." "I wanna stay here with you guys. I missed you guys." "I know why you did it sweetie. I'm not mad about that day. I still love you with all my heart." "That was the last thing I said to you. And I didn't even answer the phone when the ambulance was calling me. I left you in jail dad. To get murdered by those inmates. Jack, Elizabeth..I let you die so young."

My sister and brother giggled. My sister grabbed my hands in her small ones and looked me in the eyes.

"We forgive you."

I smiled sadly and tears started running down my face. My dad walked towards me and started wiping my tears.

"You should go back to them. They need you now." "I know. But dad. I need you guys." "I know baby girl. But that boy loves you very much. I want you guys to get old and have kids. Be happy. Die naturally. Not like this."

He grabbed my arms and held them up.

"This isn't how you wanna go Steph. I know it isn't."

My wrists were all bloody and I squeezed my eyes closed and opened them again to see my clear wrists again. They all then started hugging me then my mom got to my ear.

She whispered,"I love you baby. And I'm so proud of what you've done so far." "I love you too mom. I'll miss you."

I gave her my last hug then they all disappeared. I fell on my knees and stared at my hands then someone tapped me on the shoulder. I looked up and seen someone who looked exactly like me but a bit older.

"Who are you?"

I stood up slowly and we locked eyes.

"I'm you. Just the older version."

I looked her up and down then seen her finger. There was a beautiful black diamond ring on her ring finger. Our finger. I don't know.

"What's that?" "We got married at 24." "What?! By who?! Who married you? Us? Whatever." "I don't know. The only way you can find out is if you go back. I can't tell you. But trust me. You'd definitely be happier if you chose to go back." "I don't know. I feel like I shouldn't."

She looked at me.

"Cmon. I wanna show you something."

I looked at her confused when she started walking off then started following her. We stopped at a pond.

"Swipe your hand a little bit over the water." "Why am I doing this?" "Just do it."

I looked at her hesitantly then did what she said. Jamie and Tracy appeared. Outside. In front of a hospital. Tracy was holding her and she was crying.

"Swipe again."

I did it again and there Boosie was. Talking on the phone frantically to someone. I swiped again and seen Jake. He looked stressed and worn out. I swiped once more then there Elizabeth and Peep were. Sitting next to my bed and they both looked so tired. Peep was holding my hand tightly and looking at me sadly. Elizabeth was just staring at me with tears in her eyes.

"Stephanie..you should wake up now. We can not lose you. Please don't do this to us. To me. I need you here more than anything. I love you more than anything. I know you can hear me and I would like to hear you back. Jamie called Boosie and Jake about you. They aren't too happy. I think Boosie's on his way with Janice and Brandon. But Stephanie I need you here. I don't know why you did this but the least you could do is tell me why before you go. I already miss you and you haven't even been gone a whole 24 hours. After 24 they're gonna let you go from life support...I want you to be living by the time they do that. So please..if you love me...don't leave yet."

He started crying and Elizabeth cried harder and she got up and ran out of the room.

"You see that? See how much pain we'd be causing if we left? You can't stay here. Not yet. Its not your time. Its not our time. We're gonna be married by 24 with the man of our dreams. How could you skip out on that?"

I looked back at the pond and looked into Peep's hurt eyes. So hurt. It made me hurt. By the time I knew it I was crying too.

"I'm coming baby." "So you're going back?" "Yeah." "They'll miss you but I'll tell them what happened." "It was nice seeing you older me. I'm actually kinda hot at whatever age you're at." "I'm 52." "Woah. I'm really hot for a 52 year old." "Damn right you are."

We giggled then she grabbed my arms.

"What are you doing?" "I'm sending you back. You ready?"

I nodded and she held her hand over my cut. Then it started getting dark and I fell backwards with closed eyes.