Hellboy (Lil Peep Fanfiction)

❤Chapter Fifty❤

+Elizabeth's Pov+

I was looking in the mirror at myself. I was so disgusting. All these scars all over me. I looked tired and worn out. I felt used up. I grabbed one of Stephanie's knives that she gave to me for practicing my knife throwing. I wanted to end it all. Right here. Right now. All the memories. All the bad bad bad memories of that place still burned into my mind. My nightmares have gotten a little better but they haven't stopped. Some nights I just don't sleep. I put the knife to my wrist. Hearing the laughter of Peep, Stephanie, Tracy, and Jamie downstairs.

'Just one clean cut and you can be where you wanna be. Yeah. Come be with us. We've been looking for a new addition.'

I put the knife back down and sighed.

'Oh come on Liz. You really think your family is waiting for you? They forgot about you a long time ago. They dont need you. Why they sold you in the first place.'

I picked the knife up again and looked at it. This could end all the pain. All the sorrow. The voices. It can all end if I just put the blade to my wrist and go as deep as possible.

+Flashback+

"Wake up!"

Some ice cold water was thrown on me. I woke up out of shock and the fact that my back still hurt from the beating they gave me the day before.

"How you feelin today sunshine?"

I spit in his face and he punched me.

"Watch what you do little girl."

I spit the blood at him and he hit me again.

"You know the days would go by a lot easier if you just acted right."

He got behind me and I waited on him to do something else. I heard his pants unzip then something wet started hitting my back and my back started stinging. It came to me that he was pissing on me. I just cried. Wishing I could leave.

+Flashback Over+

I looked at the knife again then Stephanie's voice rang from behind the door.

"Liz? You okay in there? Can I come in?"

I hid the knife and sat on the bed.

"Yeah!"

She walked in and she closed the door behind her.

"You okay?" "Yeah. Fine." "No you're not. What's wrong?" "Nothing..I just..I don't know." "Is it about that place again?" "I can't get it off my mind. No matter how hard I try. I feel like I'm burdening you guys, too." "You're not. I actually enjoy your company."

I sighed and looked down. She started rubbing small circles on my back. It was actually calming me a lot. I leaned my head on her shoulder and just closed my eyes.

"Can I show you something?" "What?" "Cmon."

She stood up as I moved my head of her and held out her hand. I took it and she took me to some dark room. She turned on the lights and there were pictures of her family everywhere. CDs all over the place. I started looking through some of the pictures and she looked so much more full of life and she looked genuinely happy.

"I want you to watch one of these with me." "Okay."

I sat down next to her and she started playing a video. I sat back and watched. It was one where her and her family were having a barbeque. I could see Jamie in the video too along with some other people. We watched in silence the entire time but I could see her eyes light up and a smile appear on her face from time to time. When the video ended she turned it off and looked at me.