Jam & Jelly

Infant or an Elderly

Chapter Eleven: Infant or an Elderly-

(Kaen's POV)

(Flashback:Time depicts the two girls during their longdistance relationship.)

"We loved with a love that was more than love." - Edgar Allan Poe

To have someone that I could call mine was far beyond anything I could ever ask for. To also have someone who called me theirs was another thing I never imagined having.

>"You're so adorable. I love you so much and your happiness, safety, and wellbeing is something I'm always going to put before mine Kaen. Always.">

We had made it work. Correction: We had made it prospure. Her and I, everything, it was falling into place perfectly- set and stone.

I cared for Ellie more than I ever cared for anyone in the way I do for her. She's my baby love and I would never want to imgine a life without her.

I suppose I never fully explained how we met. After all, she did live in Melbourne, Australia and I a small city outside of Cleveland, Ohio. The distance between us was beyond comprehensible or even remotely sane.

I remember reading about lesbians and how many actually meet on Craigslist or MySpace. I assumed the website was old and published before those sites consisted of pedophiles, rapists, murders, sadist, criminals, freaks- well, you get the picture.

Anyway, it was just like her and I to fall into that awkward category of people who met over the internet. To say the least, I met her over a random chat site and was literally one disconnect button away from flushing my entire life down the shitter. Ellie had to cut the conversation short due to work and encouraged us talking further, something in which I had never put the effort into doing with anyone else before.

Lacking in any other way to put this, I inadvertently started a conversation with a girl I would come to care for very dearly. A girl who became my sole focus and the only girl I saw and knew I needed. She was the girl who I let my guard down for, the girl I was protective of and got jealous over, the girl who I came to trust and want more than anything. But of course, she was a girl that was over ten thousand miles away from me and where I lived.

There were many times I questioned whether or not we could or couldn't do it. I worried that we were a fling and that our 'feelings' for one another would die out and reveal that they were never really 'feelings' at all.

But after months of anniversaries, nights of Skype calls, tons of inside jokes and 'I love you more' fights, I stopped questioning if we would last more so than start the question of when I would be able to be with my beautiful girl face to face.

Over the days which led to months which led to an insurmountable amount of hours spent talking to one another, we learned and talked through a lot of what we knew was the inevitable. It would be impossible to not think about the distance or the time but what I found to be amazing was that even as negative and worrisome that could have been to others, it really wasn't all that bad for us in our relationship.

Ellie had said, >"It's hard. Like I'll admit it. Sometimes when I think about how far away you are I'll just break the fuck down. But that doesn't change my mind about what we are doing.">