Poetry Corner

Destroy...

I gave you power over
Me that dark cold
Night.

Four years has passed...
And it was a mistake
On my end.

I should have been strong.
Held my ground.
Not give in.

Instead I let you know.
How weak I was.
And you abused it.

Still do.
You use it to destroy
Me.

And you never give
Up the chance to do
So...

I take and take
So much pain
So much hate.

So much lies
So much bullshit.
And it's all my fault.

I gave you power over me
Long ago.
My mistake.

Have you always thought
This way of me?
From the day

You first messaged me?
Was this all a game
To keep you from

Being lonly?
Was i a part of some sick
Twisted lie?

Did you always know
You could use me?
Or did you truly care once?

I should have never
Let you know how
Much you meant to me.

Cause it showed you
I'm too weak to walk away.
So now you have destroyed me.

I think I don't deserve better.
Don't think i can do it alone.
This is what you want though.

Cause then no matter what you
Do... I'll still be here...
Broken more but here.

Do you see how
Numb I'm becoming?
Do you even care?

You say such hateful
things to me and behind my
Back...

Things deep down
I know are true...
Even when others say it's not.

You destroyed any strenght
I once had.
Any self-esteem

My generation
Did not destroy yet..
Is gone thanx to you.

Becoming an empty shell
Cause of you.
Destroyed and ruined.

Could never move on
I boned with you in a
Way that cnat be broken.

Even if it was one sided..
Doomed to this or
A life alone.

One day I will be so numb
That I'll just leave.
You know this right?

I know your no good for
Me... your power is
My fault.

You take advantage
Of my love.
My fault.

I gave you power that
Night and you used it
To destroy me.