Alone I sit tears
Falling.
I plead and do all I can
Still unnoticed.
I'm nothing.
I don't matter.
Broken crying
Alone.. feeling dead
Only five reason
To keep going.
17 years n 3 months
Till I can give in
Till I don't have to
Live through it.
I could scream
Till I have no voice
Still to be unheard.
Unnoticed.
I could write till
My fingers bled.
Still nothing.
No one cares.
I could be perfect
Yet never enough.
My pain so clear
Yet only I care
It's hard to breath.
Hard to move
Hard to get up
Hard to sleep
Hard to eat
Hard smile
Hard to live
Hard to exist
Alone I cry
Yet it's ignored.
To you it's crazy
Over reacting
Delusional
Stupid
Me acting up.
But in reality
It's how I truly feel
And you showed
I was right
And that I didnt
Truly matter.
You both did.
Alone I cry
Broken
Scared
Ignored
Worthless
Nothing important
I watch as you
Act like I've said
Nothing,
As if it was never
An issue.
Like I wasn't there.
Then you lie
Say you care
Say i matter
Say you love me
Say I'm wanted
All proved to be lies.
Yet to you
My feelings are
Me being stupid
And crazy.
Yet im supposed
To think I matter?
Alone I cry
Unnoticed.
While you wish
To hold her.
And she wishes you
There.
Leaving me even
More alone
You'll both
Keep going
Acting as if I said nothing
As if I'm okay
When in truth
I'm dying inside
But it doesn't
Matter so I'm "fine"
Alone
Crying
Dying
Numbing
Consumed
By my curse
I deserved to be
Beat
Raped
Cheated on
Thrown like
Trash.
Left
Forgotten
Replaced
Multiple times over
I'm nothing
Special
Nothing
Important
Alone crying
Trying to deal
With all of this alone
While it consumes me
And you don't care
I'm not him or her.
So my darkness
Can take me over
And youd be fine
All this and more is in my head
I know I'm
So low
I know I'm
Broken
I know I'm
Nothing
I know Im a waist
Of space
So alone
I battle my demons
Alone I cry
The scars grow
The pain not helping
My demons winning
Yet you don't see it
Showing
I could die
And it wouldn't phase you.
Alone I am
In a world
So cold
So dark
So broken
So demonic
Alone I fight...
Alone I lose
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Poetry Corner
PoetryThis is some of the poems I still have I use to have a 500 page book of my poems. Sadly it got lost over the years... I hope you guys like them. If this goes good I'll keep adding to it.
