"Skype ringing" ...a video call
I declined ....it's ringing again
I decided to pick up...
....I see your face and it makes me so happy that it hurts my heart....it hurts knowing that you love me...
....even though I can't love you back...I kept lying to myself...lying about being the strong woman who doesn't need to be with anybody...
....but you don't know how much I want you...don't even realize how much I wanna be in your arms...
....but I can't be because I'm too proud of my pathetic self...too freakin proud to get off my high horse...too proud to tell you how I really feel...
....but all I wanna be is yours....
.......all yours......
You: "Baby I haven't talk to you in so long....I've been missing you".
Me: "I miss you too...but sorry I've to hang up ....have some works to do".
You: "Please don't go".
I saw your sad face....I hang up .....
.......tears run down my face........
The more you love me the more I push you away. It's not that you're not good enough but it's me I'm not good enough for anybody....I'm not meant to be with anybody especially not with a perfect one like you. I kept pushing you away because I love you...I want to protect you from the monster that's living inside of me...from the one who can't afford to love anybody but itself.
YOU ARE READING
please listen to me
Short StoryI don't have anybody to talk to...nowhere to go....noone who can believe me...noone who I can tell my secrets....nobody I can share my pain with ....so please ...listen to me ....this is the only place I can type down my stories, my pain and be myse...
