please listen to me

chapter 16...broken clock

"According to chapter 12...cleansing water"

I'm standing on a street watching people walk past me. Everyone seems busy...everyone's moving (on) so fast.
They walk past me without looking at me....talking on the phone:......

....."I'll be home soon honey"
......"I'll come home soon and cook for the kids"
......."I'm gonna be their in 5 minutes my love"

And there's me. Standing there like a broken clock.
I can't move on with those people because my battery has died a long time ago.

He make me stand here. He was my special battery that only fits this clock. He made me move....made me alive.

"You're the only one who can fulfil me"......"you're the only one" .....
.....that's what I thought.

I was wrong.

Someone else uses that battery now. My battery. The one I thought that only fits me.

But this clock is still standing on it's place....waiting for him to come back and make it work again.

Is their any hope?....

.....or would you throw this kind of useless clock away?

*chapter 12...cleansing water
Explanation:

I like a lot of people but nobody taught me how to love until he came into my life. He made me feel like living on clouds, he made my stomach  ache like noone else and He was my teacher in love lesson. He stayed for 8 years until he can't bear the long distance no more. I am 25 now and he is 29. "We can't go on like this...we need to wake up" he told me. It breaks my heart...because I'm sure that he is the only one and will always be.
I'm like a wall if it comes to love...that's what everyone says to me. Yeah kinda.
Sometimes I envy those who can have 1 night stands without regrets and instead fun...because I can't. I tried but ended up running away crying because I feel disgusted and untrue to myself....and unloyal to him (even though we're not together no more).

My mood now: 😂
this smiley ....laughing + crying