Be More Chill and Dear Evan Hansen Oneshots (Discontinued)

Me (Jeremy Heere x Author/Animereadvideogames)

A/N: Author-Animereadvideogames... obviously XD. This was mostly a warm-up of sorts, to just get used to the character.
Word count: 3850 words.
Warnings: None

              Being cool... is there really a point? Is there a reason for it? Being cool can only take you so far, last so long, yet everyone wants to be it. Why? I'll never understand. I don't get all the people my age, their mindset, or anything, actually. Then again... I am slightly different than the people around me.

First off... I love school, hands down. I haven't met many others who do... heh, I guess I'm just a nerd, and I enjoy learning. There are other things too, like the fact I'm a morning person. I don't know how anyone can sleep for so long... I love to sleep, don't get me wrong, but I also try to be productive.

Anyway... there are many reasons that I am classified as 'weird' and, honestly, I take pride in it. So, you can imagine, when my crush, who was so awkward, adorable, strange, etc., decided they didn't like themselves for who they were, and tried to change, to fit in, I... I wasn't particularly happy.

I've heard so many strings of amazing things flow out of the guy's mouth... X-Men references here, old actors there... and I loved every bit of it. To me, it's hard to understand why he thought so little of himself. I can understand wanting to not be stuttering and awkward-I have the problem myself-but to completely change who you are? No.

What's worse is that my best friend, Gyllien, told me the exact thing my crush said. This is according to her boyfriend, Michael, though... "I want to be cool... calm... chill. I need to tell her how I feel, but she'll never accept me like this. I need help," or... something of that sort. Why does he feel like he has to change for someone else? And a random crush, no less.

Ok... so allow me to clear a few things up. Jeremy Heere. An awkward, adorable guy, that's really tall and geek-like. My crush... since eighth grade. Go on, call me pathetic, but I don't care. I should know by now it's not even worth it, right? He's always cared about Christine, another close friend of mine, but she never felt the same towards him.

Out of basically nowhere, Jeremy climbed waaaay up the social ladder. Michael was forgotten, which means Gyllien and I were too. He was dating Brooke, or something, then started to go through the rest of the girls... I'm not exactly sure. Michael said he was acting so strange because Jeremy got this thing called a SQUIP. A supercomputer in pill form which eventually planted in your brain and then tells you how to act.

Was he really that desperate for a change? Did Jeremy not care about the three of us at all? Soon after, the school play had come around. Being the theater geeks we are, Gyllien and I were both in it, as were Christine and Jeremy... of course. I didn't exactly like the concept of the play, but arguing with Mr. Reyes about the idea was a futile task.

Anyways, Gyllien and Christine ended up having the main roles... I was a background character. This was normal and expected, though, so... oh well. It was at some point in the middle, but something injected itself into my head. Turns out, it was a SQUIP... and it looked like Hatsune Miku... I truly don't know any details after that as my thoughts were being led astray. This is what Jeremy put into his body? Seriously?

Still, after all of this, everyone just... forgave him. Gyllien didn't... and I don't know how I feel about this thing as a whole. Even Christine forgave him... and Michael! I mean... I... what am I supposed to think? At this time, it was the day following this, ah, catastrophe.

I decided that, today, I will be confronting Jeremy, and I will tell him how I feel. I don't care if he likes Christine... he needs to know, and I need to say something. It's getting to the point where I'm extremely happy when I have the option of hanging out with him, but then my heart aches as I hear Jeremy even say Christine. I always knew my emotions were weird... there's always been something wrong with me... agh! Whatever!