How? How could he? I don't want to get rid of this baby! I mean, it's my baby! Even if Perri doesn't want it. I do.. I love it.
I ran back to my room and cried for hours. Ash wants me to get rid of it. By tomorrow. I suddenly got a text from Ash. I didn't dare look at the text, but I did
'If you don't get rid of it, don't bother coming back.." He said
No.. I don't understand? He's my brother.. of all people I would have thought he would understand!
I pulled out my suitcase from under the bed and packed my stuff from the drawers. I have to go, I can't let him do this! It's my baby! I can't!!
I grabbed my key card from the dressing table and dragged my suitcase down the stairs. I walked up to the desk where the lady was smiling.
"Leaving so soon?" She asked
"Yeah, family emergency.." I lied
"Oh.. I'm very sorry. Wish the rest of the crew luck though." She smiled as I handed my key card back.
"Thanks... bye.." I said leaving
I walked out of the hotel and looked up, I could see my hotel room. Am I doing the right thing?
I have to tell them where it is that I'm going and why I've left.. that's the least I owe them.
I took out my phone and pulled out Eloise's number and texted her-
'I'm really sorry Eloise, I've let you down. That's all I have done.. been a massive let down! Ash wants me to terminate the baby, I can't... I just can't. He told me not to even bother coming back if I didn't terminate it by today. I just can't though.. it's not right. I have to go away for a while. I'm still in the same place but please don't tell Perri or anyone, I just need to raise this baby myself. I don't know what you will tell them but please, tell them I wish them luck, I know you will all be fabulous and I love you all so much! Keep in touch.. Skye x' a single tear rolled down my face as I hit send.
I carried on walking and got to the train station and bought a 1 way ticket back to London.. 1 way. No way back now..
"Hi, um can I have yu autograph please?" A small little girl with pigtails said holding up and pad of paper.
"Of course you can sweetheart!" I said wiping my tears away
"What's your name darling?" I asked
"Aubrey.. and this is my sister Liyra" She said pointing at a lady holding a small baby.
"Awh, that's lovely." I said smiling
"Do you have children?" She asked
"No.." I said giving a small smile
"Oh.. you would make a great mummy." She said hugging me tightly
"Thank you." I said hugging her back
And with that she ran off back to her mum where they walked off hand in hand.
"Aubrey.." I said under my breath.
I got onto the train and sat by myself, I pulled out my iPhone and headphones and listened to Am I wrong by Envy. How do I tell Jordan. He's worth more than a text surely. Then I remembered I bought a letter writing set to write to fans with. I pulled it our my handbag and began my letter.
Dearest Jordan,
I hoped I would never be writing this letter but obviously my wishes can't be granted for the best. I won't be returning to the tour. I can't. Just like I can't get rid of the baby but I can't let Ash down. He told me if I didn't get rid of the baby, I shouldn't bother returning at all. As you know I am a big believer of fate, and this is it. A chance to start again and move on. Move away from all this, Diversity, Take A Bow, fame, dancing. Everything.. I'm sorry I couldn't tell you face to face but think of Perri. If I told him I was leaving with our child I don't know what he would do and I don't want that for him. I'm so sorry.. please just tell Ash not to worry, I'm fine. I just need some space. I don't know for how long but just enough time for me to sort myself out. Please don't think that this is your fault because you couldn't be more wrong. I love you and everything you have done for me. You are amazing and the best brother I could ask for. But your more than a brother, you my friend. Made me feel like the stars would shine just for me, even if there were millions of us looking up together. Like one in a million but I was the most luckily one in them all.
I love you, don't ever forget that! Keep in touch..
Baby Skye♥
I just cried as I wrote it silently. I saw people out the corner of my eye that obviously recognized me but they didn't ask for pictures or autographs. I couldn't thank them enough for just this short time of privacy.
Finally after a long time I arrived back in London. I called for a taxi to pick me up and it drove me home. I unlocked my house door and went in. The place seemed so lonely. It was sad almost. I unpacked my stuff and put the letter in the post box outside my house.
It got to 11:47pm and decided I had to go to bed. It had been a long day I just wanted to forget about it! Quickly. All pain and guilt I caused. Just drift off...
*4 years later*
"Aubrey, come on! It's your first day at pre school, the last thing we want is to show up late!" I laughed up the stairs
"Sorry mum, Liyra won't let go of my hairbrush." Aubrey shouted back
"Just use mine" I said
"Ok, can you come and do my hair please?" she said
"Coming!!" I yelled back
I trekked up the stairs and got to a room at the top of the stairs that was Eloise's room. The walls were painted white and the bed had really pretty flowers on it in bright colours. A small brunette girl was sat on the bed holding out a hair brush and bobbles. This was Aubrey.. my daughter.
"Plaits please mummy" Aubrey said smiling
"Alright then, where Liyra?" I said sitting behind her.
"In your room playing with the talcum powder." She giggled
"Oh no!" I said
"Boo!" Liyra shouted as she jumped out from behind the door, covered in talcum power.
"Liyra, come on, clear up that mess you little ghost!" I said smiling
"Ok.." She said laughing walking out the room
"Right then, plaits.." I said dividing her hair into do and plaiting it all.
"Mummy..." Aubrey said fiddling with the bobbles
"Yes?" I said
"Can I ask you something?" She said shyly
"Course you can." I said
"Why don't I have a daddy?" She said
At that moment my heart stopped.. I can't tell her! Can I...?
"Well.. " I said pulling her onto my lap
"Because, he has another family that need looking after because he's a part time super hero and wants to help everyone." I said smiling
"Well.. can't he help us?" She asked playing with my hair
"Because, I'm also part time super hero so I can look after you." I said
"Oh.. are you sure we have a daddy?" She asked
"Yes.. I'm very sure. because he helped me to make you and Liyra." I said tapping her nose.
"Oh.. did you love him?" She asked
My heart broke
"Yes.. I still do. But he is a super hero so he is busy a lot." I said
"Oh.." She said
Liyra then came in and sat on my other knee.
"Are we super hero's too mummy?" Lyria asked
"Yes! I can't have ordinary daughters, who will help me save the world?" I said getting up and pretending to be a super hero.
"Yeah!" They both shouted
We played for a while, pretending to save the world from evil villains and flying around. Until it was time to take them to pre school.
I am so lucky to have 2 amazing daughters.. 2 amazing twins. Liyra and Aubrey.. my super hero's.
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I know this post is early but I couldn't wait. This chapter is too big to wait! I really hope you all enjoyed it and like the new story line.
Lots of love and keep reading because the next chapter is just as eventful! :D
Skye'Celeste♥♥
