~Mc story mode stuff 3 :D

❤️

Thank you guys.

Honestly.

Seriously.

Genuinely.

What's an word??

But anyways.

Just..arg.

I can't believe it but, I've been happy. Like, really happy for these past couple of weeks...with ideas for books and animations and games..

..as you know..I've been anxious in the last few months. In my last book, I actually made an entire long-flipping chapter about my anxiety and how I was sad more often and having panic attacks, how my Grandpa died and my dog got kidnapped and everything kinda exploded in my face.

(Is it weird that I'm still in denial of my Grandpas death...and it's been months? That's probably weird.)

But anyways, it was so weird how broken I had sounded back then

I mean. I wasn't and am not depressed at all but holy dang girl, you okay?

Anyways, it was just weird.

I mean, how I could go from such a state of mind-numbing anxiety chaos to actually happy ideas and laughing bean like I used to be?

All in, like, what, a week?
This seriously just happened last week!

It's awesome
My parents are glad I'm feeling better, I have a bunch of new ideas and feel kinda great.

But of course, I've felt normal for my whole life and okay, but I'm just glad I'm feeling better.

But I'm still stressed.

Seriously..
I have to write the one-shots, 12 of them plus one for Christmas Eve, (no wait that's part of it nevermind moving on,) Mystery Mansion part 2, Unique (what so I have a Steven Universe daughter scenarios book don't judge me ,) and a couple other things

*wheezes*

And recently, although I'm pretty happy, I'm feeling..,off. And sad and kinda broken.

And I have no idea why.

It's just kinda me hoping not to spiral down into a tsunami of my own thoughts.

Because I'm kinda currently switching between being happy bubbly normal me and depressed crying sad me

It's weird and I hope it goes away soon, but I would not like to go back to being broken, please...

And I read your guys comments on that chapter. And just.

Holy crab-cakes.
I cried.
Like a baby.

Luckily my parents just immediately were, "oh jeez our daughters crying again oh no what's wrong" and giving me just a bunch of hugs

But I just felt so
Loved

Especially by Rush, Liv, Jasmine, Cindy, Crystal, Investigator, and Lysa.
(Which is only like 20 % of you guys)

Oh my good lordie Lysa
And Crystal

*hugs her and hugs everyone else*
THANK YOU

Honestly
Just
Wow

I read through their comments while I was sad and just recently, and I genuinely almost cried.

And yeah

Oceans and Comfort are still tugging at me in both directions.
And I don't wanna make it sound like I'm all happy for weeks.

Because this kinda only happened like a week ago where I'm abruptly all bubbly

But I know soon enough I'm gonna crash
Probably
I'm not 100 % sure yet

...just...

..brace yourselves, and thank you.

So much.

For all your digital hugs, comforting words, and everything else..!

^_^

Okay, well..

Imma gonna go n listen to some Bee and Puppycat and probably go to sleep

Oh and prepare for
I dunno

THE MCSM SEASON TWO FINALE? OR CHRISTMAS

Yeah I know this is supposed to be all sentimental but IM EXCITED THOUGH!

Wow I need to go to bed I'm all over the map right now, jeez.

But, just....

Thanks. ❤️

(I'll probably have a light hearted new chapter out as soon as I can ^^)