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I..Have a heart

Whether or not I cry, whether or not I laugh away my pain.

I have a heart. A fragile one. It's tainted with betrayal, despair.

But that's ok. I will live to die another day. I will not waste my time. I will not cry. I will save that for another day.

I must no hesitate. It shows how much of a weakling you are.

I sobbed to myself. No. No. Emotions must be controlled. They are useless.

Must keep happy. Must keep composure. Must keep..Lying.

I sobbed even more, my hair fluttering in the window. My phone laying dormant on my pillow.

I looked up to my ceiling. If I die nothing would change, the spinning would not recede. No-one will remember.

My parents have given up on me. My future remains unclear. Why can't anyone understand me?

I can't stop crying. I can't take this anymore. My heart which had remained so hopeful, had been shattered. My tears staining my face.

No-one cared. My life wasn't of value. It was for mockery. I want to die.

They say I'm fine. I'm not fine.

Hell I'm far from being fine.

I have a heart.
A now despaired filled one.