Broken. (Paused)

Afraid

Rushing in the house I see my dad and his other drunk buddies sitting on the couch, drinks on the coffee table watching a football game. After a minute my heart calm down. I slipped upstairs without being noticed.

I walked into my room to find jungkook sitting on the bed with headphones in. I tapped his shoulder to get his attention. " hey kookie you okay, did dad or his friends do or say anything to you?" He shook his head no. He wasn't much of a talker not after what happen to mom.

"Did your homework?" I asked but already knowing the answer. And as I expected he said no. I took the parent role for my brother, since my father wasn't doing anything . " do your homework and I'll start dinner" knowing he didn't eat anything all day.

Making my way back downstairs into the kitchen I looked in the fridge for something to cook. Empty. We haven't went shopping in a while, money is running low right now. I sighed knowing I was gonna have to ask my dad for money.

Waking into the living room where my dad and his friends were I cautiously made my way to him. From my side view I could see his friends staring at me but I ignored it. " um dad could i borrow some money, we need food for the house". He looked up at me and smirked,  I knew where this was going. He grabbed me by my hair and whispered in my ear " If I take care of you, you gotta take care of me" Knowing what he meant sent shivers down my spine. Behind me I could feel his friends closing in on me. He handed me a 100 dollar bill. That should be enough for a few days. I went upstairs and got jungkook. I didn't trust my dad to be alone with Jungkook.

*in the store*

"What do you want for dinner" I asked looking around as I pushed the cart, kookie right beside me. " um...seaweed soup" his answer brought a smile to my face. My mom used to make us that for us all the time. Bringing what I needed to make it and other stuff for the house we made our way to the check out counter.

Paying for our items I saw that we had some money left over, I'm gonna use that to help buy jungkook a birthday present. He's turning 8 next week. I wonder if dad remembers.

Grabbing our things we started walking back home.

*home*

Walking inside I saw my dad sitting on the couch with a beer in his hand. All his friends were gone. Jungkook went to his room and I went to the kitchen to put the food away and start dinner.

A couple minutes later I heard heavy foot step and a chair shuffle behind me. It was my dad. I looked over my shoulder and see my dad leaning back in the chair with a fresh beer in his hand looking at me up and down. A shiver went up my spine. Seconds later I heard the chair again and felt hands around my waist. His body pressed against mine and his hot breath in my ear. His hand traveled up my stomach pushing me back into him. My body tensed and tears filled my eyes but I didn't let them fall....I can't let him win.....

A/n: it's been so long sorry i didn't know what I'm doing just winging it...I had a plan before but...yeah so tell me what u think...if I should keep going or not..thank you....😇