Its Friday, a couple of days since I've seen Luca, I haven't been to uni all week and coach has been bugging me to come in for some practice so I've decided after visiting Ava at the hospital, and apologising, thats what I'll do.
It's taken a lot of courage for me to come back here, the feeling is so daunting and walking through these long barren corridors towards Ava's ward feels like a never-ending journey.
You got this El, man the fuck up.
I come to a corner and I'm met by a small reception area with a bored looking women sat behind. "Your name, ID and patient you've come to visit?" she questions in an unbothered tone before buzzing me into a ward with several small rooms.
Once I reach Ava's door, I stand there frozen. Memories of the last time I saw her come flooding back and as I fight to leave and keep my apologies for another day, I can't help but listen in on a conversation she's having with someone who seems to be her doctor.
"Look Ava, I know you are an adult but your family deserve to know you are seriously ill, cancer is not something which should be kept a secret. You need to tell them."
There's no response from her side but I can just picture her lips forming a tight line.
"Trust me when I say keeping such a secret can do more harm than it can good." The doctors words are sincere.
I feel guilt settle itself into the pits of my stomach- she needs to tell Luca, what the hell is she playing at? does she still believe she can keep this charade up especially after being in an accident? she's bloody crazy.
I fight the urge to interrupt their conversation and enter the room in a brazen manner and instead knock.
"Come in" Ava answers probably thinking she's been saved from a long lecture courtesy of her doctor.
Oh She couldn't be more wrong.
"Hi, can I help you?" Her doctor not looking a day over 40 smiles at me.
"I'm here to see her."
"Her has a name," Ava spits at me.
"As you wish." Once the doctor leaves us to it, there is a lingering silence and I can't make myself look up at her. I can feel her stare burning into the sides of my head and she lets out a slight cough to try and get my attention.
"El-Av,"we both start and stop at the same time.
I walk up to the window and start again, breathe El, breathe "Look Ava, I'm really sorry about everything, but you need to think about Luca and your family, what you're doing is selfish you need to tell them about your cancer."
She lets out a loud sarcastic laugh and catches my eyes, "Selfish?"
Oh boy.
"I'm selfish, well thats rich coming from the boy who fucked me and left me like a piece of trash. Not to mention the guy who turns up to school the next day after fucking me with a trophy blond fiancée."
Her face was now red, and I was feeling scared that she was going to combust.
" Oh and don't get me started on the one person who I trusted with my biggest secret to now throw it back in my face!" She lets out a loud grunt and I start to instantly regret my choice of poor words.
"You're the most selfish person I know, you've been playing me from the first day we met and now you're using my insecurities, for what? to get you out of this situation. What is it? poor little Elliot can't deal with his feelings? can't let someone in for the first time in his fucking life and is doing everything he can to sabotage-"
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The Good Boy Gone Bad.
Teen Fiction"He felt like his good deeds meant he was a good person and his bad deeds were justified. In truth he never thought before he acted or spoke, he never stopped to ask himself if his response was the right one, or merely the first knee-jerk reaction t...
