Twenty One Pilots One Shots and Imagines

This is me // T.J & J.D (part 1)

(QUICK A/N: PLEASE PICK YOUR GENDER! I DON'T KNOW WHO ALL FOLLOWS ME, SO JUST IN CASE!)

Five. That was the number of panic attacks I had just this week, and it was only Wednesday.

This thing that I had been in denial of for so long was finally showing itself; and it was showing itself in every way possible. I had always been told that being apart of the LGBTQ+ community was wrong, but now i'm apart of it and I don't know how to feel.

I'm gay, and I was always told growing up that loving someone of the same gender was morally wrong, it goes against our religion, it's not traditional, and a million other reasons. I personally never agreed with what I was told, but I didn't wanna say that in front of my parents in fear they would shun me and never talk to me again.

It started when I was in 4th grade, and I had a crush on a girl/boy named Harper/Nick, and that's when it all started. But me being a little fourth grader, I didn't realize it went against pretty much everything my family stood for. But luckily, no one cares enough about who you like in the fourth grade to ask.

It wasn't until the 10th grade when I actually noticed that I wasn't like my friends; I didn't really like the popular boys/girls like my friends did, instead I was more focused on the girls/boys. Specifically one, their name was Natasha/TJ, and they sure were something. They were one of the nicest people ever, let me tell you that. And although they could be super outgoing, they were also very kept to themself.

They had a beautiful smile and just an overall amazing personality. But I didn't let myself believe that, because my family was very homophobic, so how could I possibly be apart of the LGBTQ+ community? It just didn't really hit me that I liked them like that until one day when the populars decided to bully me... in front of the whole school.

It started with some little insults thrown at me here and there, which really didn't bother me. But it sure as hell bothered them. I tried to keep walking to get to my class, but they didn't like that. By they, I mean Ally/Jack, Victoria/Isaiah, and Clara/Troy. The leader of the pack, Ally/Jack, decided to slam me against the lockers.. and it wasn't a gentle shove.

They practically body slammed me into the cold, metal lockers. I slid down, and made the mistake of looking around. Everyone was staring at me, with that judgemental, yet sympathetic stare. And I hated it. The same look, everywhere you turn, piercing into your soul. The next thing I know, she's/he's kneeling down to my location.

I couldn't bear to look at them. They sneered and I could just feel them staring. "Look at me, slut." She/He says, her/his harsh voice tearing me to shreds. I start to tear up, but try to blink it away. Unfortunately, they notice, and they'd be damned if they didn't take that opportunity.

"Aww, what, are you gonna cry? Huh? Is that why you don't wanna look at me?" They ask, mockingly. I muster up all the courage I have and try to respond. "N-No." They burst out laughing and proceed to mock me. "Your voice is so brittle! As if it wasn't obvious you were gonna cry earlier!" They exclaim.

"Please.. s-stop." I reply. "Leave you, and waste an opportunity like this? Not a chance, wimp." The tears start streaming down my face, and the courage I built up was instantly taken down. Everyone in the room bursts out laughing.. at me.

"Hey, what's this all about?" I hear a single voice ask, instantly silencing the crowd. I look up and see my highschool heartthrob standing right next to the populars. Ally/Jack whips her/his head around, and their eyes go wide. "Oh.. I.. um.." they stutter through. "Yeah, that's what I thought." Natasha/Tj says, hostility lining their voice.

"Get out of here. Now," she/he warns, "Or else i'm gonna get your asses expelled." Clara/Troy and Victoria/Isaiah get the hint, and instantly scurry away. But, Ally/Jack wasn't quite finished, as they muttered, "You're pathetic, Y/N. Absolutely pathetic." And finished the blow by shoving my head into the locker. They stand up, glare at me and Natasha/Tj, and walk off.

Natasha/Tj instantly kneels down and their harsh demeanor diminishes into concerned friend. "Y/N? Are you okay?" They ask, sitting down next to me. "Yeah, i'm fine." I respond, unable to make eye contact.

"No you're not. I know you're not. Even if I didn't know you personally, I would still piece it together you weren't okay by your bloody nose. And the blood on the locker." They say, trying to stay calm.

"Wait, what!?" I ask, my voice quivering. Once I lift my head everything looks a little fuzzy. I look back and notice the blood dripping down the locker, my eyes instantly widen and the world around me suddenly becomes blurry. I turn back around and realize Natasha/Tj is reaching out and trying to calm me down, and everything suddenly goes dark.

*time skip*

I open my eyes, but quickly shut them due to the bright light practically blinding me. I slowly open them again and try to look around. I quickly realize i'm in the hospital, and panic. "Hey, shh. You're okay." I hear. I look up to see my mom, who, despite trying to keep it together, I can see the worry in her eyes.

"W-Why am I here?" She sighs sadly and scoots closer. "I'll tell you later, but for now, let's talk about something else." I nod and look around. "So.. um.. no school tomorrow, I guess?" I ask.

She chuckles sadly and turns to me with a weak smile. "No. Not for a while." I nod again and look down at my right arm, which has a needle poking out. I relax and lay my head back down on the stiff white pillow. My eyes shift over to the cart holding my IV bag. I watch as the clear liquid flows down the tube and into my arm.

After a few moments, I look around and observe my environment. The beeping noises and faint chatter of passersby, the white walls to match the blue and white checkered floor tiles, and the general ambience of hospitals.

I hear footsteps come to a halt right outside of my room. I turn my head and see Natasha/Tj standing there shyly. My eyes widen and my heart races, but I try to hide it and quickly try to tame the beast that is my hair. She/He giggles and walks over to my bed.

"Natasha/Tj! I'm glad you could make it!" My mom says excitedly, instantly pulling them into a warm hug. They smile happily and hug back and talk for a few seconds. My mom pulls back and looks between her/him and I. "Well, i'll leave you two alone. I'm gonna go to the cafeteria and catch up with your father. Need anything?" She asks, to which we both shake our head.

"Alrighty, see you two later!" She exclaims, walking out. I look down at my lap and play with my fingers, realizing i'm alone with the love of my life. I feel their eyes burning into me, so I look up and see  the feeling was right. We both smile and look away.

After a few moments, they decide to break the silence. "I'm sorry." "For what?" I ask in return, looking up at their sparkling blue orbs. "For.. not being there. You don't know how bad I felt, and still feel. My heart is breaking seeing you like this. If I was there then none of this would've happened.. and.. and.." they trail off, blinking back tears.

"Hey, hey." I say softly, gently lifting her/his chin; their guilty expression making my heart ache. "If you weren't there, my condition could be even worse. Thank you for helping me." Their sparkling blue hues turning glossy after I finish.

She/He wraps her/his arms around me and I do the same. We sob in each others embrace while profusely apologizing. After a while, she/he pulls back. We both look at each other and laugh. "We're quite the pair, huh?" She/He asks. "Yeah, I suppose so." I reply.

"You know.." they start, sniffling afterwards. I look up at her/him and see that breathtaking smile. "What?" I ask. "I didn't wanna say this.. but.. I think I have to swallow my pride and admit something."

"Ever since I first caught a glance at you, I realized something." She/He says, voice soft and their beautiful blue eyes sparkling once again.

"I think.." she/he pauses, and then continues, "I think I love you."

A/N: wow, that took a while. Sorry, school sucks. Give me ideas for more if you wanna see them. And i'm sorry this is a little complex but I don't know who follows me so sORRY! anyways I love you byee

Final Word Count: 1565 Words