Trust In Me ( COMPLETED )

Chapter 1

Beginning of senior year, never thought of making it this far through high school honestly. I shouldn't deserve to graduate in June, but whatever. Katrina walked up to Sam and kissed him, obviously he responded back with just as much passion she had within her. Damn that made me really jealous and aggravated. I haven't kissed or dated anyone before. Then there's Sam who has had like ten girlfriends in the past. Okay not ten, maybe five. 

"Hey baby, I love you." Sam said to Kat greeting her after their make out session in front of me, not acknowledging me standing there blushing hardcore fifty shades red. 

"I love you too. Do you want to hangout after school?" Kat answered with a giggle and asked him.

"I was thinking of just hanging out with the guys tonight, is that okay with you?" Sam asked her.

"Yes, of course. I want you to have fun too." Kat told him. "I'll see you tomorrow morning." She still stormed off after acting all nice. 

"See you." Sam said and hugged Kat for five minutes before they departed. They've been together for the past three years. There's no chance of Sam and I happening. It's a zero possibility, he's straight, definitely straight if he's french kissing Katrina Stuart. 

"I saw that look you gave me while I kissed Kat. Are you jealous or something?" Sam asked me, now he's being serious and going somewhere with this conversation. I felt my cheeks heating up and I looked down at my feet feeling ashamed for being jealous of my best friend's relationship. I should be happy for him, but I'm not. I wish that was me he was kissing truthfully and honestly. 

"No." I answered ( white lie ). 

"Good, cause Kat is mine." Sam snapped at me. "Besides, what have you've been up to all day since you haven't been in any of the classes?" He totally changed the subject which made me even more aggravated than I was originally. 

"None of your business." I muttered to him fixing my hair. "Let's just go okay?" I ran my fingers through my hair stressfully and exhaled deeply. 

Sam frowned as we walked down the hallway in silence. I hated fighting with him. I regretted every argument. I felt like the guilty one. Like I have to take all the blame, but if it's to keep Sam by my side, that's what I'm gonna have to keep doing. Anything to get him to love me too. 

"What happened?" Aaron asked us immediately, noticing something happened between us for us to not be talking. 

"Nothing." Sam muttered. "Someone's getting all snappy cause they are jealous of Kat." 

I got out of the car and Sam stared at me and his eyes softened. 

"I'm sorry, Colby, you don't want to walk home. It's too cold out. Colby, come on," Sam apologized and told me. 

I got back in the car and closed the door, then buckled myself in.

"Are you cutting again?" Corey asked me. 

"It's none of your business. Leave me alone. I don't want to talk about it." I snapped at Corey. Corey shook his head and went back to texting Devyn his recently new girlfriend. Everyone's in a relationship but me apparently. 

Sam placed his hand on my leg and sighed.

"Everything will be fine Colby." Sam promised me. "You have us and even Kat."

The electricity that went through my body when he touched my leg. The emptiness immediately returned when he removed his hand from my leg. Now I know why Kat is addicted to him. He has charm, kindness, friendliness, optimistic, warm-hearted, kind-hearted, and outgoing. His touch replayed in my mind over and over again. While Corey, Elton, and Sam were eating pizza and watching the Patriots football game on TV, I went into Sam's bathroom and locked the door behind me. I stared at myself in the mirror. Now I know why Corey noticed. I'm pale as a ghost and the bags underneath my eyes were extremely noticeable. I know the paleness is normal but not the bags underneath my eyes. They are purple and mixed with black a little bit. My wrists are pink and raw too. 

"Colby?" Sam asked. "Colby? Are you there?" I could hear the little bit of panic he had in his naturally husky voice. It was really sexy. I wanted him to hold me in his arms. 

I didn't respond with all the voices in my head telling me to kill myself and to just end everything altogether. My head pounded and my heart raced. My palms became all sweaty. Flashbacks started kicking in then I snapped out of it and responded to him.

"Yeah, I'm in here." I answered. "Just give me a minute."

"You don't sound okay. Colby, let me in." Sam demanded.

I unlocked the door shaking half to death from starving myself for the past couple of days and not really drinking or eating anything. I didn't have any energy within me.

"Colby, come join us. Aaron is worried sick about you, seriously." Sam said with severe concern. 

"Colby, what is going on with you brother?" Aaron asked me. Everyone looked at me and I looked down at my feet and fidgeted nervously.

"I'm going to be fine Aaron." I lied. I stared at the pizza, wanting it badly, but passed. Aaron sighed heavily and ate my portion of pizza. 

"Thanks." I muttered to myself. 

After the football game Corey, Elton, and Aaron went home. I decided to stay put with Sam. Sam took out two Mountain Dew's out of the fridge for us. 

"I can heat up french fries if you want. I know it's your favorite comfort food." Sam offered me.

"If you don't mind." I replied, instantly changing my mind on not eating. I wasn't in the mood for pizza. It wasn't the pizza kind of day. 

"Why did you stay?" Sam asked. "I want you to stay I'm just asking why."

The doorbell rang, interrupting our serious conversation. Sam opened the door to Kat crying.

"What's wrong babe?" Sam asked her.

"My parents are divorcing!" Kat cried out. "How could they do this to everyone?! How?! Just how?!" 

"I'm so sorry." Sam apologized and hugged her. "Colby...."

"I'll leave." I said. "Kat I'm sorry about your parents. I hope they work things out. Take it easy."

Sam smiled at what I said but then went back to feeling bad for Kat.

Poor Katrina, but at least her parents aren't abandoning her. That's a good thing.

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