3:37am

My worst fear in five parts

1- I feel a hand run over my arm. Opening my eyes in awe you are there. Everyone is there, I've zoned out, I'm sorry.
2- I can redeem myself, apologize for not being an excellent friend. Say how much everyone means to me.
3- I feel an unexpected nostalgic jolt. Don't want to close my eyes, could all be gone, my heart can't slow down.
4- You all come to hug me, but there's yelling. Such hatred, no forgiveness. Everyone came to tell me to suffer further. I'm screaming in pain. Internal pain, I am so sorry. My ribs are cracking, take my lungs.
5- I am awoken by my mother, she asks if I am ok. I tell her I've dreamt about snakes. When she leaves I will shake and twirl my hair. I am so sorry. No amount of wishing will bring you back. I will never be forgiven, I will always burn internally. I will recite the words night after night in hopes that just once I will know you are free. If I leave you alone can you rest easy? R.I.P
-FFK