I have dance practice today in 2 hours time . In the meantime , I have nothing to do . What other things to do than going to the dance room and have self-practice . When I entered the dance room , hip hop music is being played . Wasn't surprised to see Jungkook .
" Oh you're here " I said .
" Why wouldn't I be here " he replied .
We continued brainstorming and choreographed the dance steps . Just then , my captain and a few of my teammates were peeking through the transparent glass door and watched us dance .
I noticed and immediately stopped everything and blushed out of embarrassment . They came in and praised me for my progress in dancing . They complimented Jungkook too and said that he should join the team .
" I should ? " he scratched his head then looked at me with his huge eyes and smiled widely at me .
" yea you should ! not only are you good at dancing , you are amazing ! " the captain praised .
" besides , you two can .. " one of my teammate gestured at everyone with her two fingers touching each other .
We immediately protested and clarified that we are just friends . They all denied in disbelief .
More of my teammates came into the room . I became even more anxious . I checked the time . Of course , its already 3 pm .
" uhm . you should leave now " I pushed him out of the room .
" okay then . see you tomorrow " he wave me goodbye with his cute bunny smile and left .
I settled down along with the others so the captain could check our attendance . Everyone looked at me and smirked . Some were whispering about me and him . Great . My social anxiety just got worse .
After practice , I took the bus home with Allison and I talked to her about what happened . She seemed different when listening to me . She seemed , uninterested . I feel like I talked to her too much about things that I feel that I should just keep quiet .
We were suppose to have practice today . By that I mean me and Jungkook . He said that he would see me today . I waited for 10 minutes and I don't see his presence still . Usually he would be on time or even earlier than me . Is he busy ? I decided to start without him . I recap our steps and cleaned the steps myself , on my own before my main dance practice starts in about 2 hours time .
Today I feel extremely tired which is weird . All we did is dance and a 15 minute warm up . Even with the 2 hours of physical training and doing my own 1 hour workout doesn't tire me at all . For some reason I feel empty and sad ? I don't know hot to feel and what to feel .
Is it because .. no no it can't be . It can't be because of Jungkook . But it could be . He always know how to make me smile and I'm always so happy to see him after dance practice . He would be waiting and popping out of nowhere and treats me candy and stuff from the convenience store . But lately , I don't know where he is . What's up with him . He replies me late or won't reply at all .
After practice , I saw Allison rushed out of the dance room . It was weird but I don't care . I took the bus and immediately rush home for no apparent reason . I just going home and do absolutely nothing .
I had to go out again because I have outside dance classes but I feel so exhausted to even get out of bed but no choice . I went to the bus stop and waited for the bus whilst listening to hype songs like cypher on my earpiece .
In the distance , I saw a manly figure that looked like Jungkook's and a tall girl with thick thighs which looked like it belonged to Allison . I shook my head in disbelief . They can't be together . Allison is my bestfriend , she knows I have a crush on him . And Jungkook's my loyal friend and wouldn't blow me off during practice for girls . But that could happen . Suddenly a whole movie was playing in my head and I just died .
I shook my head again , " ugh shut up Fira " I told myself .
After my dance class . The instructor talked to me about a dance competition . He said that I have potential and that I can either go solo or with a partner for the upcoming dance competition . When he said ' partner ' I immediately thought about Jungkook . We've been choreographing a dance together and we're almost done .
" I'll think about it . But I will go for the competition . I just don't know to go solo or or as a duo " I smiled to him .
He smiled back , " it's okay . confirm with me again latest by the end of next week "
I texted Jungkook about it .
Jungkook
online
today[3.27pm]
: jungkook
: my instructor said that there's an upcoming competition . Do you wanna join me ?
: we can use the item we've been choreographing together ?
today[8.58pm]
uhh when is it ? :
: i don't know but it's in 3 weeks time
ohh :
i don't think i'm going :
: huh why ??
i'm sorry Fira :
but like i'm so busy these days :
we won't have much time to : prepare
: oh .
: so you're not coming tomorrow
yea :
: reason being ?
im busy ok :
: don't lie
i'm not :
: ok .
Why do I feel like his hiding something from me .. Took him long to reply me even when he was online when I sent him the text . Maybe it's just me overthinking again . He most probably is busy .
It was quite upsetting but I guess I will be doing solo . After making my decision and go solo , we discuss about the competition . There are many categories for different ages . There is also a hip hop category and a kpop category . I decided to join both in the junior category for ages 13 and above .
For kpop category , I'm dancing to BTS's Baepsae and for hip hop , I will be doing BTS's No More Dream but a self choreographed version . I need to work on my abs because they're not ready yet .
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