It has been 3 days since I am in Chicago and I am currently editing my Vlog because Jungkook and I decided to do a three day Vlog in one video and upload it on the fourth day at midnight .
My Vlog is more like a montage of Chicago and showed a tour of the auditorium where World Of Dance competition will be held .
I also showed a short clip of my rehearsals and dry runs .
I have done everything I need to do and now I am just waiting 2 more minutes till the clock struck midnight .
I stayed up even though I feel extremely exhausted from the dance practices .
But that's fine because practice tomorrow would be in the afternoon which means I have more than enough time to sleep .
I finally pressed upload from my mouse the moment 11.59 to 12.00
I waited over 10 minutes for the video to be uploaded . Suddenly , my phone rang .
I checked to see the notification and it said that my Vlog was successfully uploaded .
It also said that my other video was successfully uploaded .
There's only one meaning to this and that means Jungkook have already uploaded his Vlog too !
I immediately tapped the video Jungkook posted . " FORMING A KOREAN BAND | Jungkook's Vlog " I screamed out of laughter at that title . It was a 3 minute long video .
I couldn't stop crying from laughter . His vlogs are so funny . He met new friends I guess ? I only recognise Namjoon .
But I couldn't find Jimin though . He went for the audition too . It was nice seeing him smile so widely .
The last time I saw that bunny smile was when he held that surprise birthday event for me and when he came to help me was the first .
He also did a one minute montage of what he did the past three days . I could see he did a lot of work out and physical training .
He did a tour of the bighit building and their very cramped dorm .
There was still one minute of the video left . The transition was poorly made , no offence .
It quickly changed the video of him in the building to him talking to the camera in low quality .
I could tell that the camera was placed on his desk . His bare face showing his acne scars .
Why do you still look so cute like a baby ? He was talking to the camera about our personal lives .
" I've read through a lot of comments and try my best to reply all of you . So here is my explanation " he said .
Bro , you doing a Q&A without me ?!
" So I have been friends with Fira for .. ever . hehe . I can't recall when but I rolled the ball first . We both are very determined and passionate people if you talk about dancing . As you can see we are now going our separate ways . " he answered a fan's question , I figured .
" She's in Chicago and I'm still here just that l moved in to another place . You know we spend so many years together . Through blood , sweat and tears . We were always there for each other . Even if we fought with one another , we can never be separated but look , we are now . I regretted this . The regret feeling in me cannot leave me . I regretted not asking you to be that special someone . " he added .
Where are we going with this ? I felt confused but curious and continued watching the video .
" For all this while I wanted you to be my girlfriend . But the stupid , coward me decided to wait a little longer . I kept saying that and now it's too late . Fira , I liked you more than just a friend . Why ? Why do you always make my heart beat so freaking fast . I enjoy every little thing I do with you . But the feeling without your presence .. its just .. wow . I feel so empty . "
Tears just started rolling down my cheeks . Why am I crying ??
" Fira , I have something to confess to you . I mean its all over now . I don't know when you will comeback but you might not even come back anymore . And i'm really worried for you . Fira , I love you . more than just a friend , loyal friend . You've helped me a lot in many ways . You changed me and shaped me into someone good . You treated me so special . I couldn't resist lying to myself anymore . Fira , I love you . "
I just don't know what to say .. Why Jungkook . Why did you only tell me now ?? My whole face was drenched with tears . I paused the video for a while . I needed to get my shit together .
" Anyways , I'm still happ- ahh Why am I crying ? aheh . Why ? Why ? Why ? I'm still.. *sniffs* happy for you .. *sniffs* that you .. got to go *chokes* to one of the most known competiton . I'll support you to the end !! Fans , please support her . Ahh , goodbye " he choked on his words .
He covered his face when he started to cry . I was full of regrets too . I just stuff my face into my pillow and let out all my tears .
I cried to sleep and woke up 8 am in the morning .
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[A/N]:
Did yall cry or anyt ? bc i took a lot of thinking okaiss to write the part when jk confessed to Fira that he liked her .
but anyways , hope you guys enjoyed reading this !!
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i'm fine | j.jk
أدب الهواة" I matter . but you made me believe that I don't " " put one a fake smile and everyone believes you " " everything's going to be fine " " yea , that's because its not happening to you "
