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Twelve

[ Fira's POV ]

I had all day to get ready . It felt different from other times people asked me out .

I took my time to shower , dry my hair , put on a face mask , cleanse my face , put on a bit of makeup , did my hair and picked out the perfect outfit .

I wore a red off shoulder dress . I tried to wear my one and only high heels but its a pain killer . So I wore my red converse sneakers to match with my dress .

I was taking my time all the way because I figured that Jungkook would've called me when he reached .

I sat on my couch not knowing what to do . I checked the time on my phone to see that it was already 7.50 pm . Where is he ..

It's okay . I shouldn't overthink . I waited for a while . Is he blowing me off again . No , no , no . He couldn't be .

I tried calling him but he didn't pick up . I texted him but he didn't see them . I watched as the time on my phone struck 8 o'clock . Even so , I tried calling him and texting him . It was already 9 pm . I gave up .

Why was I so gullible to trust you and gave you a second chance . Why am I being so nice towards for everything you've done to me .

I hate myself . I hate myself for trusting you . I hate myself for trusting you again . I hate myself for crying . My makeup is all ruined from all the crying .

I went to the toilet to wash it all off . Shit I ran out of make up remover . I put on a mask to cover up my puffy , swollen ugly face and went to the nearest convenience store to quickly grab myself some make up remover , baby wipes and fattening food .

After paying for the items , I was walking back home when I could feel vibration on my right thigh . I took out my phone to see 2 missed calls and 21 messages from Jungkook .

He was calling me again but I declined . I didn't have the mood to talk to him . While eyes glued to my phone , I bumped into someone .

My stuff dropped and he helped me pick them up . It was Tae . " What are you doing here " he questioned , smiling at me .

I replied back with a sad smile , " I just bought some stuff "

" Did you cry ? " he asked in concern .

" no , no . I'm fine " I backed away .

We hangout at the swing for a while and talked a bit . He wrapped his long arm around my small shoulders . It feels warm and comfy .

I feel more relieved now . I feel like I should see him more than Jungkook . He seems nice is just that I didn't pay attention to him much .

I've been so caught up with Jungkook , I guess I forgot about everyone else in the world .

[ Jungkook POV ]

After exiting the ward and immediately left the hospital , I went to the parking lot to drive to Fira's place since I tried calling her she won't pick up and wouldn't want to reply to my text messages .

I went down all the way to basement floor . Just when I was about to grab the keys , its with Jimin . 

Great . Just great . Not only did I went to the restaurant and have dinner with Fira , I had to entertain that bitch and I can't drive home now . 

I took a few trains and buses , having to transfer from one place to another . I was running across the street that she lived in .

But it was too late . Someone else took my spot . She seemed to be nice and friendly around him . And is comfortable too .

I felt even more hurt like as if you're drowning and can't breathe . That's how my chest and lungs are feeling . I inhaled and exhaled rapidly .

I turned my back on them and went home to Jimin's place . I didn't have keys to his house either . So I had to wait till he comes home .

When Jimin turned the door knob I instantly went up to my room and shut the door hard . I didn't feel like socializing .

I felt like my life literally just shutdown . I'm a failure . I can understand why she hates me now .

I had to release my stress and anger so I kicked everything in my way and started cussing and spewing vulgarities . Why ? Why am I so dumb ?

It's like a beast that had gone violent in its cage . I continuously hit my forehead against the wall until it starts bleeding .

I'm sorry Fira .