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Music
How do I get through one night without you
If I had to live without you
What kinda life would that be
Oh I need you in my arms, need you to hold
You are my world, my heart, my soul
Hinaplos ko ang puntod nya sa harap ko. Unti-unting bumagsak ang mga luha sa mga mata ko.
Mom, how can you leave me like this?
Bakit pati ikaw pa kailangan mawala sa'kin?
Why didn't you wait for me?
If you ever leave
Baby you would take away
Everything good in my life
And tell me now
Nagpatuloy ako sa pagkanta habang humihikbi at nagsisindi ng kandila.
Back when I was young, you would constantly sing me a lullaby to make me sleep.
Then when I wanted to have your full attention every time you're busy at home, I would sing at the top of my lungs so you would spare me a glance and smile.
But now.. no matter how much I sing, you wouldn't be here for me.
How do I live without you?
I want to know
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go
How do I ever, ever survive
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live
'Di ba you love my voice when I sing?
Sabi mo pa nga dati, I can be a singer so you made me join chorale and singing competitions back in grade school and high school when I was a lot healthier.
You made me discover my love for music. Kaso I got sick so I didn't get to pursue it further.
From then on, nawalan ako ng gana.
Pero nagbago ang lahat nang dumating sa buhay ko si Anthony. He inspired me to sing again.
You were both my motivations so how can I pursue my dream now?
How can I live my life to the fullest without you both in my life?
"So it's true, what my son said about you."
Napalingon ako agad sa pinanggagalingan ng boses.
I look up and there I saw Anthony's dad holding a bouquet of white roses in his hands. Nilagay nya 'yon sa puntod ni mommy at tumabi sa akin.
"Indeed, you have a one of a kind voice," aniya sabay ngiti.
Nanliit ang mga mata ko. He wasn't anything like this three years ago. He wasn't friendly—not to me at least. My presence never mattered to him when we cross paths in the hospital. He'd always be keen on doing his job. He never acknowledged me as his son's girlfriend.
What changed?
Dahil hindi na ako ang girlfriend ng anak nya so I'm no longer an eyesore? Halata naman kasi na hindi nya ako gusto para sa anak nya dati.
Pero ang hindi maalis sa isip ko, of all people, bakit sya pa ang maaabutan ko rito?
I wanted to ask questions but my lips simply parted. Nothing came out. I just stared at him in surprise.
Pero agad din naman nasagot ang mga tanong ko sa mga sumunod na sinabi nya. I was taken aback.
"Listen well, Serene," panimula nya. Gone was the cold, calculated voice he used to spoke back then. He was gentle and adamant to speak to me right now. "Your mother and I have a long history together."
