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Companionship
"Penny for your thoughts?"
I snapped back to reality when I heard a certain manly voice.
I face him as he sits beside me on a bench at the hospital's garden--since I got so bored in my room and I can't sleep either. There's a sparkling smile plastered on his face--shining through the moonlight as we succumb to the darkness of the night.
I was dazed and confused. "Are you talking to me?" I unwittingly asked to this good-looking green-eyed guy with heart-warming dimples.
He must be pure American. I don't know him but I would love to know him. Ooppsss.. what am I thinking? Go away, contradicting thoughts!
Darn, I've been living in California all my life but I never really gotten used to these handsome guys around me. He's just one in a million but still those features just got my knees shaking.
I'd be d*mned if I was standing when I saw him. I can't keep it together.
Heat runs through my skin especially on my face. I can't help but blush as I look around trying to spot another person whom he might be pertaining to.
Luckily, there's no one. It was just me and him around.
Wait, what? Why do I feel so glad with him around?
I don't even know this guy.. yet.
"But then I guess you need this more than a penny," he answered fondly as he removes his jacket and puts it onto my shoulders.
Maybe he thought I was shaking because of the weather. Winter is coming. Meh. Partly though, I forgot to bring my own hoodie from my room.
"Geez, you don't have to. How about you?" Nakakahiya naman kasi. So I tried to give it back to him.
No matter how pleasing in the eye he is, he's still a stranger after all. He insisted though.
A fine gentleman he is. I somehow felt warm inside not just because of the jacket but also because of his presence.
"I wouldn't mind for a girl like you," he said softly. I smiled bitterly.
This is the first time a guy tries to hit on me or is he really?
Maybe I'm putting too much thoughts into this?
Either way, I never experienced being in a relationship--well obviously because of my situation. I'm a burden. An unwanted baggage. A broken piece. Or something as fragile as a glass.
Basically because I don't experience the same routine a normal person does. Most of my childhood are spent in hospital walls and ceilings.
Kaya ayoko rin na mapalapit masyado sa kahit na sino, e. I have no time for friends and lovers. Magkakasakitan lang kami pagdating ng panahon na hindi ko na kayanin.
Kahit nga kay Mommy. Hindi ko na rin siya masyadong pinapapunta rito kahit na mas nakakalungkot mag-isa.
Mahirap na ngang magpalaki ng anak na mag-isa.. 'yung ganitong may sakit pa talaga. I feel bad for her more than myself.
"Trust me, you wouldn't wanna be around someone like me." I said laughing humorlessly.
His eyebrows arched at my words. He was perplexed.
I shrugged it off. I don't owe him an explanation. We just met. He wouldn't think that I'd just go around opening up to people whom I barely know, right?
