Not Only You & Me (Editing)

Fault Behind

XV

Ryneigh's POV:

Kasalukuyan akong nadito ngayon sa opisina ko. Ikailang beses ko ng ginagawa itong sketch para sa project interior na gagawin ng aming kumpanya ngunit, napapayuko na lamang ako sa paulit-ulit na design na nagagawa ko. Fuck. This isn't me!

I'm a perfectionist. I can't stand things not that perfect, it'll bother me a lot.

Tinapon ko ang ika-sampung papel na sinulatan ko. I have done so many attempts already yet its still doesn't look perfect enough. My younger sister came here a while when I was stressedly doing this pathetic project. She started picking up the papers that I was throwing in the trash.

"Maganda naman 'to ah."

Even if I know na nagpapanggap lang siya to make me calm down, I looked at her and throw a glare.

"Mitch, just...leave." I told her while trying to calm myself. Fuck it, my head hurts. I put both of my fingers to massage the sides of my head.

"Ate..." she tried coming towards to calm me.

Don't even come near me. I'm not in a good mood.

I looked at her, she looked at me with a worried face.

"Ate. Just, calm down. Hindi naman siguro magagalit si Dad." she was really trying to calm me down.

"Just, get out would you?!"

Hindi ko sinasadya na mapalakas ang boses ko. She looked down with a apologetic face. Hindi ko namalayan na tumulo na pala ang luha niya.

"Mitchell, I-I'm sorry." I stand up off my chair. I tried to apologize but, she stormed out of my office while wiping her checks.

She's depressed ever since before Mom died. And I, just fucked up her emotions now. Good job Ryn, you had one job to be a Ate and not make her upset, now you officially ruined it.

Mitchell always blame herself of what has happen to mom. We said it wasn't her fault, it wasn't anyone's fault.

I tried going after her pero, she was subbing the whole way when she was leaving my office. Damn it. Napahilamos na lamang ako ng kamay sa sobrang frustration.

Mitchell's POV:

Wala na 'kong ginawang tama. I upset Ate, now she's mad at me. I can't blame her for putting up with me all this time. I'm must be too much to handle for them. Ilang beses ko ng inisip na sana ako nalang ang namatay at hindi si mommy. Ate and Dad always tell me na hindi ko kasalanan ang ngyari. But no. I was the real reason why mom died and Ate is suffering from a memory lost ng maaksidente sila ni mommy.

Baliktanaw...

Every since noong buhay pa si mommy I was already depressed. I also have anxiety towards crowded people, parati akong inaatake if I'm in a type of groups. I never told them about this though. They only know that I'm depressed. That's it.

Sabi ni Dad kailangan ko daw magpa-consult sa Psychiatrist. I never wanted to, but mom and Ate got me to do it. I admit, it actually help me slowly, but not surely.

Until one day, my parents and Ate gave me a surprise birthday party. A lot of people where there ng surpresahin nila ako. Nang una ko pa lang makita ang mga tao, I felt my stomach flip and my throat dry. I felt dizzy.