chapter 35

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"Where are you going?" Reggie asked as i got up from the made bed on the ground where we all slept in the living room floor

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"Where are you going?" Reggie asked as i got up from the made bed on the ground where we all slept in the living room floor

"I have to do something, i promise ill be back"

"Where are you going its 5 in the morning River" Reggie asked again

"I just cant sleep okay, ill be back" i looked back to Reggie

"No, im not letting you out of my sight ill go with you"

"Please Reggie, i need to be alone i need to do this alone, ill text you every ten minutes if that makes you feel better?"

"Promise me?.." Reggie frowned as he laid back down in the bed "i love you okay" Reggie sigh as he looked back at me

" yes i promise, and I know you do.." i replied as i grabbed my sweater walking out the house..

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My heart was beating so fast as i walked up to the door, the front yard had beer can all over the lawn with the fake play guns and foam bullets

Reaching the door i i knocked

"Give me a minute" the voice yelled as i heard him cough, i giggled as i heard him struggle, must have been a dab hit as hr couldnt control the cough

"Yeah?" the door opened revealing Bear, in joggers and Nike slides with out a shirt

"Hi bear" i shyly smiled

"River you little shit" Bear smiled as he squeezed me into a hug "fuck little one stop fucken doing that, i thought i lost you too, i cant loose the 2 people in my life" Bear begged

"Im so sorry" i teared up "i just cant help but blame myself, i love him, i just wasn't in love with him, i killed my best friend"

"River you know thats not true you didn't kill him"

"Then why do i feel like i killed him?" i sobbed as i just hugged bear "that was my best friend dude, thats my fucken life, my fucken heart, my family and he just..fuck why is this shiy happening to me, to us? " i yelled "thats my best friend, how am i suppose to move on with my life? I cant even look at Reggie with out feeling guilty because i chose him over Xander"

"Little one you cant help who you love, you just accept it, Xander came clean and he didnt even care he just wanted you happy, thats all that ever mattered to him"

"And Xander? I loved him just not the way he loved me what about his happiness?"

"Its okay, its not your fault, its not him its no ones, shit happens Xander did what he had to do to protect you and that boy was sure he wasnt going to live long"

"How do you know?" i asked as he led me into the house

"I thought me and xans were just being idiot, but now i see he was leaving his good byes" Bear teared up as he brought out home made dvds

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