Writings to the Moon

Lullaby

When we first met
I was drawn in
With those ocean blue eyes,
With the warmth of your touch.
I wanted to be with you.
To become your other half.
I decided to tread the crystal waters,
Unaware of the danger lurking beneath.

You kept we close,
Put me under your spell,
And just like that
I was wrapped around your finger.
We enjoyed many days and nights together,
And I was so happy to be with you,
Until the tide turned
And the water came crashing in.

I realized slowly what was happening,
That I was being lured out to sea.
With the sparkling water
And warmth against me,
How could I refuse?
But as I swam further from the beach,
Further from safety,
I was falling in to you.

My first instinct was to try to escape
To grasp that horizon and
Struggle for dear life,
But your current is much stronger
than I,
And I was only pulled under,
And my lungs became full of you.
Suffocating,
I was drowning.
But then, I didn't feel the pain.
Pain of this world,
Pain of the past,
And it slowly slipped away,
Until nothing occupied my mind,
But you.

Again and again I fell for you,
Fell for the false allure
Only to be pulled under.
But each time you hurt me,
I forgot.
And each time,
My shattered heart mended,
Even if only to break again.

So yes,
I fell under your spell.
Was blinded by you,
As you eclipsed my world.
Even the pain you brought me
became alluring,
And I was lost in the red.

You played my
Like I was some game.
You were a puppet master,
And I was nothing more
Than a chained marionette.
Your spiteful words fueled me,
And your agonizing song
lulled me to sleep.
I was captivated,
By your fabricated touch,
And could only find peace
In your pain filled lullaby.