Amor Vincit Omnia

VIII.

AVO || The Mansion

   Sam was like that even when we reached our flat. He didn't talk to me after that and I already looked like an idiot back at the elevator, begging for Sam to talk to me. But it was fine. Seeing him like a sulking puppy was fun.

"Are you really not gonna talk to me?" I asked with a fake frustration, "Like I said, that guy is someone I just met at the flower shop and yes, I've seen him at the school once while picking up Kevin. What you saw earlier was the closest encounter we've ever had."

My eyes widened when I saw him roll his eyes at me as he loosened his tie, "You seem pretty close than that."

I couldn't stop the chuckle from escaping my lips as I tried to think of another reason to convince him that what I'm saying is the truth.

"Did you even hear what he called me? It was by my first name and you know that the only person who can call me that is a complete stranger."

He only stared at the dead TV in front him and when I sat down beside him, he only threw me a glance.

I bit my lip and reached for his tensed arm. I almost laughed when I saw him flinch at the contact. He cleared his throat and continued his act. I moved closer to him and leaned my head on his shoulder. I feel his body slowly relax but his face remained emotionless.

"Let's see. What does a girl got to do to make the man she loves believe her?" I thought for a moment and then looked at his face, "How about a kiss?"

He immediately turned his head to me but his face was still furrowed, "You really don't know that guy?"

I knew he was warming up to me. He couldn't stay mad at me. I bit my lip and nodded, "Yep."

His face softened and he put his arms around me and pulled me in for a hug. I smiled and cuddled in his warm embrace. But I could feel that there was still something that was bothering him. I let go and looked up at him.

"What's wrong?"

His face looked tired and his eyes were painted with pain. There was an unknown emotion that swelled in me. I didn't like how sad he looked.

"He looked like Kris."

I couldn't breathe. The way he said it was so heartbreaking. Tears formed in my eyes as I reached to touch his face.

"No..." I murmured.

"When I saw you, I thought the time has finally come," he chuckled but there was no humor laced with it, "The time when he's gonna come back and take you away from me."

I could only shake my head as tears streamed down my face. I didn't know it would hurt this much to hear him say these things.

"Ever since we've been together, I've been nothing but scared. I was scared that he would show up one day and continue where you guys left off. I was scared that maybe I'll still lose to him," his fingers played with my hair, "To tell you the truth, I feel like I just borrowed you from him. At the end of the day, you go home to him and—"

I just couldn't let him finish. I quickly wrapped my arms around his neck tight. I want him to feel that he's the person I love. I felt his neck wet with my tears.

"Don't say that! Sam, please..." I sobbed.

I never thought our day would end up like this. I only wanted to cuddle with him and make him forget about what makes him jealous. I felt his large hands fill the small of my back. He began to rub it up and down as a way to comfort me but it only made me cry harder.

"I'm yours, Sam. Completely. You don't have to worry about other people. It's you and me 'til the end, okay?"

After that, all I could remember was crying in Sam's arms the whole night. He just kept holding me until I fell asleep. All I knew was I had a dream that night. I was surrounded by white and I was all alone. I tried walking but it felt like I wasn't moving at all. I was stuck in the exact same spot.