ᴛᴡᴇɴᴛʏ ᴏɴᴇ || ｐｊｍ

[ I. JIMIN ]

❝But you're my everything. (You're my)
Everything (You're my)
Everything.
Please get out of here. Huh.

I'm sorry (I hate you)
I love you (I hate you)
Forgive me.

I need you girl.

Why do I fall in love and say goodbye alone?❞ 

the first three letters came together but he couldn't send his reply to her.  there wasn't a return address on her letters.

~.:|:.~

You're writing to me now? All of a sudden, you write to me and expect it all to be okay? That I'll stop worrying? Stop caring? 

How can you really ask me forget you?  How could ask that from me?

Was it easy for you? Was it easy for you to forget, because I didn't mean as much to you?

You say you miss me and you keep saying you're sorry.  But it's been months since you last spoke to me and if you missed me that much, where are you now?  Where are you every time I've gone to find you, and where are you every time I knock on Namjoon's door and he's staring at his phone like someone's died?  He pretends like nothing's wrong, that he's just worried about Bangtan and work but you think I didn't notice when his call log was filled with your number because he called you repeatedly?

You never answered.  Ever.  And we were the people you said you were the closest to, that you'd tell anything to.

Tell what though?  Tell your lies?

I almost called the police when you stopped answering and all you left was a two sentence note.  You didn't answer your door. Neighbours said they hadn't seen you.  I was so scared I cried. Senjin said you'd still been messaging her and when she helped me to ask you where you were, you caught on and stopped replying to her too.  She's your friend.  I was your friend.  We were your friends.

Don't you think it's selfish to come out of the blue?  To one moment act like nothing's wrong, congratulate us and then tell me you think you know how I feel?  To do this to all of us, then tell me to forget everything?

How would you know the way I've felt?  

You haven't been here.

For all your talk about friendship and love and loyalty, I wondered how you could just leave us all like that.  That you had to be abducted. Threatened by someone.  But you weren't.  That didn't happen.  It was your choice.

I noticed when the others started seeming passive about finding you.  I thought they were forgetting  and giving up when all I could think was how you were missing.  Then Jungkook slipped up.

'Hyung, you have to stop it.  She's fine.  But she's not coming back.'

Did you know how angry I was at him then?  How I went at him but he held me back and told me what Hoseok had told everyone - he'd found you and you made it clear you didn't want to be found.  Jungkook said Hoseok had been acting in a way no one had seen since debut.  Solemn.  Hopeless.

You didn't just hurt me.  You hurt everyone.  You hurt Senjin, you hurt Namjoon, Hoseok, Jungkook and the rest of Bangtan.  How could you do that?  How could you do that to all of us? Why, other than this being a game to you?  

It doesn't matter.  I'm done.

Don't act like you care.  Don't act like you remember.

Because if you did, you'd be here.