ᴛᴡᴇɴᴛʏ ᴏɴᴇ || ｐｊｍ

-ｓｉｘ

jimin - 

i liked giving you nicknames.  but i liked your own name even better.

i know there are other people who have the name too, some of them even girls, but I've never been close to them.  so you're the only jimin in my life.

what are some of your favourite memories?

mine is when we went stargazing that night in busan and then the beach the next day to watch the sunrise.

it was strange staying with you and your family.  they kept asking if i was your girlfriend, and you teased me, joking and saying that i was.  i think you regretted it a little after, because your parents and brother wouldn't let it go even after you told them it'd been a joke.

i'm glad i went to busan those few days to meet up with you.  i hadn't done anything during christmas and new year in such a long time, though it still made me feel like i was intruding on your family reunion.  they were so welcoming though.  

thank you for that.

we haven't known each other for that long, really.  remember when we met?  i still remember when you came in the first time, because it was five in the morning and my shift was about to end.   you were about my age and i thought it was so strange for someone to come to a convenience store so early - or so late.  you looked worn out but still smiled and when i looked at you, your eyes were tired but they disappeared into the most adorable eye smile.

you bought honey butter chips and a brown cylindrical plastic container of stick biscuits.

that was 2014.  three years ago.

it seems like so much time has passed but then it doesn't feel like it at all.  sometimes it feels like i've known you my whole life and i wonder what would have happened if i hadn't decided to work, or if i had quit.

there was a lot that you did for me these few years.  you made me happy and we had so much fun.  i found someone to rely on, someone to care for, someone to trust and someone who relied on me as well.  someone who made me feel important, as if i had a purpose in life.

but all good things have to come to an end, jimin, and some things just happen.  you can't explain them.  it's not that easy.  and sometimes the road is harder to travel but in the end, we still have to go through with it and hope we come out better at the other end.

i hope you can somehow understand this.  i had to go.  and there's no other reason for it.

much love,

kimbap