An AR OS Gallery!!! - 2013 -

27. FEELINGS AND LOVE

I was in cloud nine today... At last, at last she had come in to my life... God had gifted me the most beautiful gift anyone could have in their entry life... After nine months and nine days, she was in front of my eyes... I always wonder, how it would feel to when she come out from my womb...

Today, I has no word to express... I always thought, how others feel when they get bless... I was lucky, lucky I got the opportunity to feel the moment..

I am Riddhima Armaan Mallik.. Daughter of Shashank Gupta and Padma Gupta... Wife of Armaan Mallik... Still know it my life, I had got everything I desire... Everyone make me feel special and Armaan, wht to say about him... He adores me... Uske liye main sab kuch hoon... Uski zindagi bhi main hi hoon... Lekin ab is zindagi koh baatne ke liye ek aur jaan aayi hai...

Haan, woh koi aur nehi humare pyar ki nishani hai... Humhare Beti... Humhare Angel, Ariana Armaan Mallik... Aaj main garv ki saat keh sakti hoon... Main ek beti aur ek wife ki tarah ab ek ma bhi hoon...

Ariana ki Ma... Meri pati ki bacchi ki ma...

Meri Armaan ki beti ki ma...Armaan ki ek hi wish ta, Jitna jaldi ho sakhe hum ek nanhni jaan koh humhare zindagi ki hissa banade... Armaan hamesha kehte hai, Bacche hogi toh humhare rishte mazboot hoga...

Phir main chaahkar bhi use aur Armaan koh khud se un dono ki balaike liyeh chod nehi sakte... Main jaanti hoon maine pehle Armaan koh khud se alag ki... Woh doh saal hum ek dusre se alag ti, mujhe yeh ehsaas dilaya main Armaan ki bina saans kiya, zinda bhi nehi rehpaungi... Phir bhi maine bohot koshish ki Armaan ki dil main apne liyeh nafrat paida karne ke liyeh... Lekin Armaan ne kabhi mujhse naraz nehi huva..

Yehi Armaan ka pyar hai mere liyeh.. Jo maine uske saat kiya, Armaan koh lagta hai woh humhare zindagi main aaye ek pal ta jo hum dono koh yeh ehsaas dilaya hum ek dusre ke liyeh bane hai... Woh Armaan ke liyeh ek aisa pal ta woh use samjhaya kuch bhi ho, woh sirf mujhse pyar karte hai aur karta rahenge hamesha...

Armaan ne mujhe apne zindagi main phirse laakar pure dhuniya koh dikhaya... Koi kitna bhi koshish kare, jab kissi koh koi sacchi dil se haasil karna hai toh woh hokar rahenge, kyun na woh saamne wale kitna bhi koshish kare... Hamesha pyar ki jeet hoga...

I came back to sense when I felt our baby moving in her sleep... She was an month old now... In the past month, Armaan had make my and her life like heaven... I was happy, happy Armaan had come to me, accept me after the pain I had given to him... It was always his love that make me fight for my disease... That make me believe, I had to live, I had to live for him, I had to live with him...

If today, I am alive, It becox of Armaan love... Armaan trust that I could fight back... I would live, I would come back... I didn't know how Armaan found me, How Armaan had been doing everything to make me live... Live like a normal person...

After making me normal, it was Armaan who always stood by my side to support... It was Armaan who take care of my every needs... It was Armaan who keep awake just to check if I need anything or I was not in pain...

It was always Armaan and today, I am happy I make him happy by gifting the best for him...

I look around to see the time and it was 1am in the morning... Armaan wasn't in home and our Ariana just slept..

Ariana... I look at her to see she was sleeping peacefully... She was looking so beautiful... I move closed to her... Taking her small hand my hand, her little hand hold my finger... It was so soft... tiny tiny fingers...Smile automatically came in to my face... I softly kiss her tiny tiny finger and hand...

As she was sleeping, I remember how crazy I was when I first time came to know I was expecting her...

Armaan was so happy, he just couldn't stop talking about our baby... Every time he get, he put his ears on my womb to feel her... I always wonder before I get pregnant, how would it feel...

I didn't know I would get the bless of feeling my own baby, our baby so soon... Even I keep counting the days as after 4months, it only started to feel the baby inside... I always ask people how does it feel when they feel their baby inside... Till know no one could explain other then saying it feel bless... Happy... Excited... But how...

Every questions of mine was answer... Even when I started to feel our baby inside me, I didn't get the exact word to express how it feels... I felt so bless and lucky I was a girl... Girls could get the bless of become a mother... How much pains they had to go through, how much sleepless night they had to be awake just as the baby kick inside their wombs...

It was just a beautiful feeling... Only mothers would feel it... I m not saying fathers and guys don't but, womans r blessed... Bless to carry a soul and another little body inside their womb... I thought of doing something special for the coming baby, so as I came to know I was expecting, from that day, I had write everything in my diary...

So I would be able to tell others, how I felt to be a mother... I write every daily routine I do, everything regarding the little jaan who was growing inside me making our life bless...

One thing I understand today was, No mother can express the rite word, how they feel about their baby...

Becox one word isn't enough and if i had to explain u how it feel, it would take ages me to stop talking about the matter...

I was so glad, I thought of writing everything down which I felt.. Becox becoming a mother for first time would be special always... Not like if I had another baby I wouldn' feel happy and special... But then I would have already experience everything... I know one thing wouldn't change ever, the feeling... The feeling to be bless to feel the baby inside our womb...

'Riddhima..' I came back from my dream land when I heard Armaan calling me softly..

I look at our Ariana and slowly without making any noise, I stand up as Armaan was standing looking at our baby...

'Kaam hogaya...' I ask moving closed to him...

He had been with me from 5 in evening but got an emergency around 9pm... So he had to leave urgently...

'Haan... Everything is fine...' Armaan says...

I move closed to him and hugs him... He also hugs me and whisper 'I love u...'

'I love u too Armaan and thanks...' I said as I had been waiting for the right moment to thank him knowing he wouldn't accept the thanks becox he always things what ever happiness comes in our life, its only becox of us.. Not only he or me...

'Love u too tak tik ta... Lekin Thanks kyun... Please don't say for giving u the bless to be my daughters mother and all that hah... We both r equal in it...' Armaan says...

I smile feeling the same love and care from him... How he knows her so well before I even say anything... Seeing me smile Armaan just hugs me knowing he was right...

'Uff main kiya karu tumhara Riddhima... Ek month hogayi Ariana koh.. phir bhi tum har din har raat mujhe thanks bolte ho...' Armaan says..

Even I don't know why I keep saying thanks to him... I feel so blessed that I feel jitna bhi main Armaan koh shukriya ada kare, woh kam hai...

'Armaan.. It was u who gave me another life...' I said...

'No Riddhma... I today we r parents.. Its becox of our love, our trust to each other..' Armaan says...

'Kuch bhi kaho Armaan.. It was u who give me Ariana... Make me bless with a beautiful daughter... Make me a mother of our daughter...' I said...

Armaan just hide me in his arms and I hide my face on his chest... Thinking, he wouldn't ever understand why I thank him... I also thank god for making me fight, fight for my life, fight to Armaan sake that today, I m so bless to me a daughter, wife and MOTHER...

~ THE END ~

With love,
Rihoohaws