The Heaven That We Can't Reach. (BoyxBoy)

VII. Confrontation

"Jane Trinidad daw po"

I'm so lost. I have no idea what to do or what to tell Jane about this. What if she knew all along? what if she's just waiting for me to say something. Richard came to me after his little conversation with the maid. I got up and started to ask questions to Richard.

"Akala ko ba si Dad lang nakausap mo kagabi?" I told him while I'm wearing my clothes.

"Oo nga." He replied. "Eh bakit alam ni Jane na andito ako?" I asked again, my worries growing much faster this time.

"I-I don't know, siguro sinabi ng papa mo?"

I'm so annoyed, hindi ko alam bakit alam ni Jane na andito ako and bakit alam niya yung address ni Richard.

"Where are you going?" He asked.

"I don't know." I replied.

"What do you mean you don't know?"

"I don't know! Hindi ko alam! Okay? Fuck it." You can't actually blame someone when I'm like this. The blame is all on me since I'm the one who made this decision to come over to Richard's and now Jane is here. The possibility of this situation to became a horrible disaster is just to obvious. 

"Sabi ko na nga ba. You're scared." He scoffed. 

I got a little pissed by how he thinks that this is easy for me. "Scared? Of course I am. Sayo pa nga lang ang hirap nang umamin eh kay Jane pa kaya." nag umpisa akong pumunta sa banyo to check my self but it got quiet after what I said, too quiet. Kaya nang lumabas ako ng banyo, I saw him looking at me while he was standing beside the bed. 

I looked at him too, signalizing him to speak. "So that's it? babalik ka na sakanya ganon ba?"

I immediately closed my eyes to think about what I'm going to say. I don't want to draw anything that would cause a fight between Richard and I. Sugarcoating wouldn't help, but a harsh reality would hurt.

I came close to him as I did my best to explain. "Look, You don't know kung ano pwede gawin ni Jane. Once na nalaman niya yung about saak- saatin? malalagot tayo. Remember we both go to the same school. Pag iinitan tayo doon." I warned him. Tumingin ako kay Richard pero umiiwas na naman siya ng tingin. 

"I'll talk to her." He suggested. Nanlaki mata ko sa narinig ko.

"W-What?" I asked, not following his plan.

"I'll talk to her and I'll tell her that you're not in here."

"Hindi mo alam sinasabi mo Richard. You're gay at pag nalaman niya na andito ako then-" 

He cut me off and said, "Walang nakakaalam na bakla ako." He revealed. Oh no, I told Alex about him.

"Wala?" I asked. 

"Not in this school." He replied. 

We both gave each other a second to think. And Richard is the first one to drop down his plan.

"Okay, I'll give you to her. I'll tell her that I just saw you and we're friends-" His voice starts to rumble. "-Okay? Ibabalik kita kay Jane. Even if it-" All of a sudden, Richard paused. Tumingin ako sakanya pero bigla siyang nanlumo. He covered his face and started to cry. 

"-Even if it hurts."

The way He said na nasasaktan siya made my heart melt. Nasaktan din ako nung nakita ko siya na parang walang sumasalo sakanya. Sobrang naguilty ako this time and felt like shit. Naramdaman ko na may sasabihin pa kaya I gave him my full attention and listened to him before saying anything.