The Heaven That We Can't Reach. (BoyxBoy)

VI. A Little Reason.

I knew for a fact that I was dreaming when I saw everyone laughing at me while they are around me. They were saying things that are excruciatingly painful especially for someone who is slightly sensitive like me.

"Disgusting."

"Madumi."

"Baboy"

"Malandi"

Ayan yung mga sinasabi nila sakin pero hindi ko naman maintindihan kung bakit nila sinisigaw sakin yan. I look up and saw familiar places particularly Brix and his friends. And there was Jane, held by Alex while she was crying. Tumungo ako at tinakpan tenga ko para hindi ko na marinig mga pang babatikos nila sakin pero it's too loud; na parang palakas ng palakas- yung mga sinasabi nila. 

Sinabi ko sa sarili ko na nanaginip lang ako, na magigising din ako any minute from that moment. Still I'm to fragile, gusto kong sumigaw pero when you're in a dream you can't control it that's why you just have to let it slide through your system. 

Pero luckily I woke up. I don't know how pero I'm grateful that I did. Opening up my eyes and seeing sunlight is like entering paradise. I adjusted my body realizing that I'm shirtless and soaking with sweat. Tumungo ako and saw Richard watching me from other side of the room. He's on the lazy boy chair holding a cup of coffee while in a relaxed position. He's wearing a grey tank top with his pajamas, assuming that He just woke up also.

I was about to talk pero for the second time pinangunahan niya ulit ako.

"Don't worry, your dad called last night and ako na sumagot, I told him you ran into trouble and had to stay here." He stood up and came to me. I sat down and I met his eyes but I'm pretty sure he's trying to avoid eye contact. 

"Here, drink this." inabot niya sakin yung isang mug na hawak hawak niya. I took it and the aroma of the hot chocolate traveled to my senses. Bumalik ulit siya sa pwesto niya pero hindi parin siya makatingin sakin. We both took a sip of our drinks pero the air is still dead. 

"Uh- What happened last night?" I asked. I'm sure enough that I went to him all tired and decided to passed out pero after that wala akong matandaan na iba.

"You passed out, sa pinto palang ng bahay. You told me na tumakbo ka which is a stupid thing to do." He said, taking another sip of his drink. 

"Then, uh. binuhat kita papunta dito. Changed your clothes kasi basang basa na ng pawis. Buti nalang almost same lang tayo ng size."

"thanks a lot." I chuckled. I took a time to appreciate this room. The color of it is very minimal, ranging from the colors black and white. Very similar to my room kaya it didn't really surprised me. Pero what surprised me is that I remembered I'm shirtless. 

"Richard? Bakit- Uh, Bakit pala ako nakahubad?" I asked awkwardly. Napatingin siya sakin and slightly laughed. 

"You were having nightmares last night habang binabantayan kita. You were muffling for some reason so I checked you out and ang lamig ng pawis mo si tinanggal ko nalang shirt mo. Ilan beses ka rin pinulikat kaya minasahe ko kasukasuan mo sa paa." 

Hindi ko alam magiging reaction ko. He's too kind, to endearing. Hindi ko aakalain na gagawin niya sakin to despite sa mga pinag sasabi niya sakin. 

"Thanks." I said quietly. I'm actually speechless. Hindi ko alam kung paano ako makakapag express ng gratitude ko.

"Don't worry, wala akong ginawang masama sayo dahil alam kong ayaw mo nun and besides. Straight ka diba?"

Then it hit me. The way he asked me that was a little bit sarcastic pero tumagos sa puso at isipan ko. Now naalala ko na yung reason bakit gusto ko makipag usap sakanya.