The Heaven That We Can't Reach. (BoyxBoy)

V. A Sudden Change.

"Nicholas?! Nicholas!" I can hear my sister's agitating voice between the sounds of my dreams. Then dumilat ako and gasped for air. I'm sweating and It felt like I was having a nightmare.  Sinag ng araw nakabalandra sa mukha ko. Pag ka bangon ko napansin ko na nakatulog ako sa lapag at nakakalat ang beer at wine bottle sa tabi ko. 

"Nicholas? Wake up!"

It's my sister, knocking on my door na parang sinisingilan ako ng utang.

I groaned to ease the head ache, scraped my eyes with my hands to have a clearer vision.

Damn, another hangover. Ang hirap ng ganito.

"Nicholas!?"

"Ate can you please wait?" I shouted as a grab every bottle and hid it under my bed. 

"Dude, breakfast is ready downstairs." She said through the door.

"I-I'll be downstairs..." Binilisan ko na ang pag kilos sa pag ligpit ng mga naiwan ko sa kagabi. I grabbed another pair of clean clothes and put them on, only to realize that my sister is still at the door.

"Nicholas? Okay kalang ba?" She asked. Napatingin ako no where para mag isip kung ano isasagot ko; "Yes ate, I'm fine."  No, I'm not fine. I feel really terrible and groggy at the same time. "Can I come in? Maybe we can talk?" She suggested. Pero I'm not gonna follow through. I wont give myself a chance to try to talk to my sister nor my father since given the fact that they probably wont understand me and they are both busy, either way within that; I think I'm alone.

I couldn't even talk to Alex about this. He will kill me if he knew what I'm hiding between my sleeves. I'm so occupied with all of this mistakes that I'm starting to think I can't get out of it. I want to make this a regular day as possible as I can and probably talk to Richard as a closure to get rid of the guilt. Ang hirap ng ganito, tapos dumagdag pa etong sakit ng ulo ko. 

I went to school with nothing in my stomach. Kanina I can't feel anything and It's like my whole body is numb except my head pero now, I'm horribly hungry and I can feel my stomach shouting at me.

Mas lumala araw ko ng dumaan ako sa grupo nila Brix. Now you're wondering, why? Kala ko tropa tropa kayo bakit naman lumala araw mo? It is because they did something really unusual. Usually they would greet me pero it wasn't as I expected this time. Tinitigan nila ako, differently. It was like I was a complete stranger to them. 

I didn't bother coming to them and talk to them about it kasi I'm starting to think that the more I erase myself from someones narrative and stop meddling on others business, mas magiging safe ako.

"Bro!" A familiar voice echoed through the hallway. Tumalikod ako and nakita ko si Alex na patakbo papunta sakin. When He came to me he gave me a hug.

"Dude are you alright? Didn't hear anything from you last night? And sobrang nag aalala si Jane sayo kagabi. She even called me and sa-"

"I-I'm Fine." I told him.

He looked at me and sigurado ako na alam niyang nag sisinungaling ako. He came close to me na malapit na sa tenga ko and whispered; "Alam mo dude? Between you and me? You're a pretty terrible liar."

Wala na akong nasabi dahil hindi naman ako yung tao na nag sisinungaling and by the looks on Alex's face? he seems pretty concerned and disappointed at the same time. He grabbed my shoulder as a sign of assurance na andun lang siya parati para sakin. "You better come with me, I have to tell you something." He offered. And I obliged. Wala naman narin akong magandang gagawin for the rest of my time

We went to the court yard outside of our school kung saan madalas tumatambay ang karamihan ng students dito. Parang outside cafeteria rin kasi to. Pero dahil medyo hapon na, onti nalang din ang tao. I followed Alex sa same spot kung saan kami madalas umuupo at nag uusap. Pero the last time na andito kami is when Veronica broke up with Alex.