The Unknown - Vampire Knight

Chapter 九

Chapter 九
Voiceless Tears

            Secrets. Everyone had at least one secret that they hide, maybe they don't even realise that they have one at all or maybe they have so many secrets that they cannot tell what is truth and what is lie. What secrets are shared and what secrets are locked away forever? Well that's up to the holder to decided.

The secret that I carry, the one that I unfortunately have to share with Kuran, is the secret to how I lost my voice. Well I didn't really care who knew about it, actually in all honestly I'd tell the world if I could. That way the world will finally know how horrible the Kurans were; how horrible of a mother Juri was.

It all began... so many years ago...

My little sister was born two years ago, I'm currently three. I was never allowed to be anywhere near her because I was nothing but a monster. A beast in human form.

The head maid, Rhythm, was the only one in the whole mansion who cared for me. She was a strikt woman, but she never gave me the same look that mistress Juri always did. To me, Rhythm was my mother and no one could ever convince me otherwise.

While I was cleaning the halls near the nursery I heard a crying sound. My little sister was crying all of the time, but she was never reprimanded for it; unlike me she was cooed and cuddled when she cried while I was whipped and punished for making a single sound. Rhythm rushed past me to check on my little sister, most likely to make her stop crying as quick as possible before mistress Juri throws a fit about her child being neglected.

Rhythm was always saying that little Yuki will grow up to be a needy and spoiled child with how much she cried and how everyone was to pamper her. Rhythm was a firm believer that your infancy stage was a strong tell sign of your character in the future--children who cry for the littlest things without thought of how to solve problems on their own would grow to be dependent on others while children who could hold their tears would grow to be leaders of people who could not be so easily manipulated.

I decided to follow her, the volume of her crying was much louder than usual so I figured she might need some help. When I slipped into the room, Rhythm was cradling Yuki in her arms trying to get her to stop crying. "Good timing, Ryda, can you pass me that bottle? And hurry, don't want the misses to see you in here."

With a swift nod I did as I was told and, once fed, Yuki was quiet and on the edge of sleep. "Can I sing her a lullaby, Rhythm?" I was peering over her crib, my feet tippy-toeing on a stool to be tall enough to do so.

"Sure, but quickly. The mistress won't be happy if she sees you in here, Ryda."

"Okay!" I grinned and looked back down at my baby sister.
"Cast away your worries my dear...
For tomorrow comes a new day...
Hold, to me, you've nothing to fear...
For your dreams are not far away-"

"GET AWAY FROM MY DAUGHTER!" My song was cut off by the horrified shriek of mistress Juri and just as I turned to face the direction her voice was coming from, everything went numb.

My ears were ringing, the white noise apparent, and I found myself falling without any means to catch myself. "Eh?" Mistress Juri's power had sliced through my throat, the long hair that fell around my neck now chopped and fluttered to the ground alongside me.

"Mistress! Please stop!" Rhythm screamed, I could feel her arms around me as she lifted my body into a protective hold. "You're going to kill her!" That was the last thing I heard her shout before the doors were slammed open by master Haruka and the hollow thud of something falling to the ground.

Rhythm's head laid lifelessly on the ground and that was the last thing that I had saw before my eyes closed and darkness engulfed me.

I had awoken in the dungeons days later.

Rhythm was gone.My voice was gone.
And it was all my fault...

I was born a monster... thus I was never supposed to be born at all.

"Hey, miss, snap out of it." I was brought back out of my memories from the taxi driver snapping his finger in my face. "We've arrived at Keko Cemetery. That'll be thirty seven forty five." I nodded to the man and handed him the money as I stepped out of the car. A bouquet of forget-me-nots hugged in my arms as I made my way to the small gravestone hidden deep in the cemetery.

Upon arriving, I dusted off the stone, using the water bottle and washcloth I brought with me to clean off the dirt and grime from the headstone before placing down the bouquet. I made it, Rhythm. I have the protection of the Senate now, Asato took care of me growing up and taught me to control my powers. I'm not a servant anymore, I have friends now too. A single tear fell from my maroon coloured, left eye. I'm not alone anymore... so you don't have to worry about me anymore. You can rest easy now.

Little did I know, there was a hand placed gently on my head as I cried at my mother's grave. The woman who was my mother in every way but blood. She was watching over me, and she was always beside me to watch my every move while I treaded along the road that was called 'life'.

My tears were silent, my cries soundless, but the pain in my heart was earthshaking. I was a monster, whose mother had died to protect. I killed her, because I couldn't protect her.

I'm truly a monster, aren't I?  

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Well there it is, you all finally know how Ryda lost her voice; where her scar was from and what her inner most demons tell her.

Hope this chapter wasn't too short or sad to read, it seems I'm developing a pattern of sad stories in my publishing lists... oops.

The lullaby wasn't made up by me, it's an actual song from a different anime. I've used it in a few of my other stories too, just goes to show how much I love the lullaby and the anime I guess^^

Lullaby: Inuyasha's Lullaby
Source/Anime: Inuyasha