Equals ft. Logan Paul

Nine

"You look great." Josh says as I step into his Porsche. 

"I can not go for 'just great' today, I need to be amazing, magnificent, perfect." 

"You are, and you know it." he insists. 

"Your body is perfect, the spray tan, the hair, the nails, the Brazilian. If you don't get a spot now I don't know what's real anymore." I laugh nervously at Josh's attempt to spike up my confidence. 

I'm a confident girl don't get me wrong, but in a minute I'm going to be surrounded by some of the most beautiful women in the world who've worked just as hard for this as I did. The only thing that might give me an advantage is my social media career, however there's no way to be certain they like the idea of having a little social media star featured in the show. 

"-what do you think?"

 I come back to reality. "What? sorry I zoned out for a sec there." Josh chuckles at me.

 "I've just had a meeting with Jeff and-"

 "Jeff?" I look over to him, am I supposed to know a Jeff.

 "Yeah Logan Paul's Manager, you know?"

 "Oh yeah manager Jeff." I don't like where this is going. 

"Yes and since both of you have such different, unrelated followings. And you two are both one of the fastest growing channels. A collaboration is only natural. Don't think your appearance in the background of his vlogs has gone unnoticed, it's great that the two of you are already friends. That will make a collaboration only easier." He says excited. 

Hoping to avoid the 'Logan Paul' subject, "Can we talk about this later? I just really want to focus on this casting." He nods. 

We park the car and walk towards the building. Josh stops me in front of the door and grabs my hands, "You remember, always, that you are Brooke fucking Ray. And she is is the most beautiful, both inside and out, the most hardworking, most talented girl in there. Believe in yourself and they will too, because I did, I do,  because of you." 

I pull him into a hug, "Thank you Josh." 

I follow the sing saying 'Casting Victoria's secret fashion show 2017 Shanghai.' There's a line of girls in black lingerie already waiting. I spot my friend Alice but she's 'in the zone'  headphones in and all so I'll just leave her to it. 

I'm in the second group starting at noon. "You go into the dressing room, do your make up and change. I'll see you after the casting okay?"

 I nod. "See you soon!" he winks as a 'you've got this'. 

I know a lot of girls here, from previous jobs, shows or even just Instagram. It's always nice to have people going through the same thing whom you can talk to. However there's definitely a sense of competition in the air. I just focus on me and do my best. 

I go for the hole 'no-makeup makeup' thing like many others. They want you to present a clean natural version of yourself. 

Finally it's my turn to go, I'm super nervous but I'm definitely in full control of myself. Let's do this! I walk into the room in my black lingerie onto a white carpet line that is supposed to represent the catwalk. I shake my hips, look the show producers straight and confident into the eyes. And smile, I'm happy to be here. Look straight ahead, I am born for this, this is my spot. 

At the end of the catwalk in smile. 

"Brooke Ray we're so excited to have you! You look amazing, really." Ed Rezek, executive producer starts.

 "Thank you for having me." I show my excitement and joke around a little bit because that's what I do, I make jokes. They laugh with me and thank me before I leave the room. 

Josh is there waiting for me, "How did it go?"

 "Honestly I think it went great, I was my best self and gave them my all." A tear rolls down my cheek. 

He puts his arm around me, "Honey you did amazing, come let's go have a drink at the café down the street. They are gonna have the all deciding meeting for the next two hours and then we'll know... 

"Two shots of vodka and two green tea please." Josh orders. I chuckle at the randomness of his order. The shot goes down my throat, leaving a burning feeling behind. 

"Just what I needed Josh, you know me too well." He chuckles. 

We chat about business, fashion and boys while sipping our tea. "I really think that I need to think about buying a car, it's starting to get really annoying to Uber everywhere." He nods approvingly.

 "Yes, I'll put it on the checklist for your next meeting with Bob, do you have any idea of the kind of car you want?" Bob is my financial manager, he deals with all my financial adult business.

 I shrug, "I just want something dope." I order an organic pumpkin soup as I begin to get hungry.  

 "So about the collaboration with Logan I really think-" 

"Fine just set it up." I just want him to shut the hell up about Logan fucking Paul. It works, he nods and immediately starts calling outside, most likely it's Jeff.