Who am I Really?

Heart stopping

Why can I not stop listening to the clock tick? Every single buzz of a small bee or the crunch of leaves under someone's size 7 shoes. It's like my ears were hyper focused on every single sound that was going on around me.
"Koda?"
I whip my head up seeing the whole class is staring at me.
"What's the solution to 'x'?"
I could feel my face flush a deep red. I had no idea what question we were on. Tyler, a small kid who used to tutor me, kicked my chair behind me and coughed,
"Four"
He cleared his throat and I repeated his answer. She nodded her head and tried to find her next victim who wasn't paying any attention. I turned around and smiled at him to thank him for saving me from the complete embarrassment. Looking back down at my worksheet I couldn't focus on the numbers again.
Tick...tock...tick...tock.
It was like my brain was waiting for something to happen. Like I had a gut feeling of something, but no idea what it was. The bell rang and I practically jumped out of my chair. I packed up my bag and walked out shoving my headphones into my ears. I hated when people talked to me in the hallway. I walked out of the big front doors of the school, pulling my car keys out of my bag.
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As soon as I got home I went straight to my room. Most of the time when I got home my mom was at work and my father had already started his day drinking so I avoided him at all costs. I heard my phone start to buzz and I looked down at the brightly lit white screen.
'Mike'
I picked up the phone hesitantly.
"Hello?"
"Hey there beautiful. You busy today?"
Gag
"Yes Mike, I'm busy today. And every other day. Look, you're my best friends older brother and THIS is never going to happen."
"Come on Koda, one date that's all I'm asking. Trust me if you give me a chance I can change your mind."
I rolled my eyes chuckling. Little did he know it would take a lot more than a dinner date at American Pizza to change my sexuality.
"Yeah? How so?"
I could hear his disgusting smirk through the phone.
"Come take a ride and you'll see."
EW! This is why I'm a fucking lesbian! Guys are complete pigs!
I hung up the phone and immediately it started ringing again. Without hesitation I picked up the phone.
"MIKE I SWEAR TO GOD IF YOI DON'T STOP CALLING ME I'M GOING TO KICK YOU SO HARD IN THE FUCKING BALLS YO-..."
I heard the person on the other end clear their throat.
"Um...Koda...it's me...can you come over my place? We need to talk."
I swear in that very second my stomach dropped to my ass.
"...Lux?"