Who am I Really?

A worthwhile trip

I got into my car and drove quickly to her house. The gps in the background cutting in every couple minutes telling me the way. My heart was pounding out of my chest.
What if she wants to talk about the bathroom? What if she tells me to not tell anyone because she's embarrassed. God I was so stupid to let that happen.
I pulled down her street and I could feel the zoo in my stomach. Her black F150 sat in the driveway next to her brothers 1995 Lincoln. God they couldn't be any more opposite. I pulled next to her house on the street and pulled out my phone.
'I'm here.'
I texted her. My hands shook the whole time.
'Come on in.'
Fuck.
I stepped out of my car and walked up to the front door. I was trying so hard to play it cool but In all reality I just wanted to turn back around and run to my car. I knocked on the door and she came to the sound. As she opened the door I just...froze. Nothing worked, my brain, my breath, nothing.
"H..hey."
She choked out smiling.
God she's beautiful.
She was in a black AC/DC baseball shirt and Nike spandex shorts. Her long black hair draped messily over her shoulders.
"Hey there."
She cleared her throat and stepped back from the door.
"Oh um you probably don't want to stand outside,"
She chuckled,
"Come on in."
I stepped through the door and awkwardly pushed my beanie down adjusting it. She walked to the couch and patted next to her. I came over and sat next to her putting my hands between my knees. She just smiled and stared at me.
"Why do you do that?"
"Do what?"
I questioned.
"You act like you don't want to be around me,"
Little does she know it's the complete opposite.
"You act like you don't want anything to do with me and then we talked all night at the party...and....um...the library..."
Shit I knew she was gonna bring that up! Why wouldn't she? We fucking kissed.
"No Lux that's not it at all I swear!"
"Then what is it?"
"I...I'm shy."
"Bullshit Koda we talked all night at that party, you told me some really deep stuff and I opened up to you."
She was right. I told her how my dad was an abusive alcoholic and how my mom was a non-existent work-aholic. She told me how her mother killed her self when she was little and her dad was locked up for something she didn't care to talk about. That's why her brother and her live with their grandparents.
"So What is it Koda? Do you want me to leave you alone? Pretend like nothing happened?"
"No!"
"Then What is it?"
"I...i..."
Oh fuck word vomit.
"You what?!"
"IM IN LOVE WITH YOU LUX!"
Everything stopped. The world stopped turning and my heart stopped pounding. I just...froze.
"You...you're in love with me?"
Run. Fucking run bitch.
"Y...yes..."
She smiled looking down and looking back up into my eyes. She scooted closer to me and placed her hand on my upper thigh.
"Koda....?"
"Yes?"
"Kiss me?"
Without hesitation I leaned forward and pressed my lips against hers passionately. I placed my hand on hers taking my other hand and brushed her hair behind her ear. Her hands cupped my cheeks as she melted into my kiss. After a few seconds she pulled away slowly and I felt her smile before she detached her lips from mine. She looked deep into my eyes biting her lip gently.
"Koda?"
"Yes?"
"Be my girlfriend?"