Cherry Blossom

SEVEN🌸

Cherry's POV
"Hey there girl. There's a guy here to see you. And by the way, he lookin good honey, lemme tell you!" My nurse, Serina says. She turns around and sees Ash standing there and smiles politely. Then winks at me and walks away. 
"Hey Cherry. How ya feeling?" He asks softly. I nod.
"So umm, I have something I need to tell you. And it's serious. Okay?" I nod again.
"Okay well, I'm just gonna be honest and say it." He stops when he sees I'm paying attention then continues.
"I um, can't see you anymore." He flinches and that's when I speak.
"W-what? Why? You're the only person that's not a nurse that comes to see me." My eyes start to fill up with tears.
"Because, well, it's because... I think I have feelings for you. But I don't want to ruin my relationship with Vicky. You kinda understand don't you?" I glance down at my fingers. I can't believe he likes me but at the same time I can't quite understand why. I look up at him. Making sure my eyes are intense and serious.
"W-why?" I ask.
"Because, because," he starts to say something but shakes his head and comes over to me and grabs my hands. "Because your innocence and beauty is overwhelming and I'm afraid of you becoming more important to me than my own girlfriend." He steadily stares at my hands unable to look up and see what he's doing to me.
"Hey, look at me." I say to him, reaching up and placing my hand on his chin. Trying to force him to look at me. Once I succeed and his beautiful brown eyes are on mine I smile.
"Look. I understand. You want to be faithful to Vicky. And I clearly still don't understand why you take such a fancy over someone like me over her. I dont know what happened to my parents and she does. She knows who she belongs to, I don't. She knows her name, and I don't. I'm a shattered soul caught in a tragic accident and she has you. She's way better than me. And you don't have to explain further okay? I will try to understand and not look forward to any more of your visits. I'm sorry I'm such a burden for you." After I have his eyes on mine there's strange electricity flowing through me. A feeling I don't remember ever having. He pulls away from me and starts pacing around the room.
"That's the thing. You've done nothing wrong. I'm the one that's doin something. I don't know why I even fucking told you that. I came in actually just wanting to see you and how you're doing and I blurt that stupid shit out." He throws his hand up in the air while his voice escalates. "I just, I don't know, now every time I'm around you I have to force myself from not kissing you. Or holding you. And this feeling was small at first. Not even noticeable. But the more I saw your beautiful face the more.." His voice trails off. And I nod.
"The more the feeling grows." I finish his sentence. He looks at me, shocked. Dumbfounded even.
"Go. I won't stop you." I say, settling more into my bed with a fake smile on my face. Inside, this completely killed me. But I didn't want him to know and draw back from it. He stares at me for a couple minutes, groans loudly in frustration then leaves. Just leaves.
"Bye." I whisper. "You'll always be in my heart." I say, I wanted him to hear that but he's already long gone. He's gone. And he's not mine to miss.