This era of my life i'd like to call " awakening" !!
Every day was like a routine for me :
I'll try to get to know her , and when i get too close ''BAAM''
SHUT DOWN !!
She wasn't kidding when she said she'll be harsh on me !
She was tough but elegant !
Spent time struggeling ,while ROSE or as she allowed me to vall her Rosie wich was a nickname i liked to call her with and wich was a delecassy only i was allowed to have , she kept pushing me back !
That's when i knew i had to wake up !
I was conscious at that moment that i'm trying to help her while i neglected myself!
To help people you need to open up to them first , wich again wasn't too hard for me ....... Just nearly impossible that's all !!! No big deal !!
So i asked myself is Rosie really worth doing thaa....... FUCK YEAH!
Who the fuck am i liying to ? She is every day passes i realise how unique of a person she is !
So , with no further ado , i did .
Came up one day to her , all that was in my mind " dude go , all you need in 10 second of bravery and a sprinkle of some insanity , so go. "
Walked to her in lunch break
She was sitting alone as usual.
I told Steve that we'll go join her, and he had no problem with that .
Acctually she was cool with steve who also didn't know her well but had so much time around her that they shared jokes and had fun together !
We sat together for some times we talked about a lot of stuff , and she had fun laugjing and having so much fun with people cause she could open up with no problem around us !
As soon as Steve went to bathroom ,i looked at her and said with a blank mind and a heart pumping like train ...
"Ok Rosie , look can i say something ?
_" yeah sure ......" she said it with a suspecious face that turned red as soon as i said
" ok look i've had enough ok?
We're friends and i'm cool with that but why aren't you letting me help you why always pushing me back , i always since that you're a good tough independente girl from the inside so why hidding it ? Just why ? You're a beautiful person and i hate to see you shutting yourself down by getting inside a shell that'll end up by crushing you while you call it a safe zone .
I want to let people see what i see , that you're different and....
_" i hate you man, "
Last words said by Rose while leaving me there and interrupting my speech !
