Jealousy || T.Holland ✓

7

"I want to be with you," Tom had told me one night with a broken voice and tear stained cheeks.

Zendaya had found out about the affair and broke up with him.

How did she find out?

I think you can figure that one out yourself.

She said she understood why we did it, that we were never fully over each other, and how she wasn't really mad at us, because in the end, she was Tom's rebound. She felt that she never should have allowed that to happen, but, while at first she was trying to help a friend get over his ex, she had developed feelings for him.

At one point, she truly loved Tom.

I guess that's how it works. We fall in love with him and he breaks our hearts.

Tom's acting goes beyond the screen -which is why I denied his attempts to get me back.

He pleaded with me to take him back, to go back to normal, and to make him happy again.

But the truth is, my normal with him didn't include happiness. It included a constant reminder that I wasn't good enough for him and how I should be grateful that he was with me, because no one else would be.

Other girls would have accepted his pleads, but I knew him more than anyone else. I wasn't about to be the rebound to his rebound.

Another thing about Tom is that he couldn't stand it when he was the one getting broken up with. It had to be him telling you he didn't want you, or he wouldn't accept it.

That's the exact reason he played me for so long, because he wanted me to feel one hundred times the pain he had when I hurt his ego.

Congratulations Tom, you broke me.

I think he'd be proud, but I never gave him the satisfaction of knowing that piece of information.

Turns out, I'm just as good of an actor as him.

I showed him that I was okay, that I didn't need him to be happy and whole again.

Fake it 'til you make it right?

I've faked it for nearly a year and now I've made it.

I made with a man named Nick.

A man who always showed me his flaws, because he was 'human and had them too'.

He noticed when the media would attempt to drag me down from my high with him, and he would explain to everyone each and every reason why he thought he was the one who didn't deserve me.

He made me feel a type of love I use to dream about having with Tom.

I was on top of the world while Tom was struggling at the bottom.

The world found out what type of person he was, but not from me.

It was the numerous amount of girls that came after me. Each one of them were caught up in Tom's games and had enough.

Even if Tom broke my heart a million times, I could never hate him, because in the end, he is just a hurt person trying to find peace in hurting others.

Without him, I never would've found Nick and I never would've been as happy as I am right now.

No matter how angry I was with Tom, I have to be appreciative for everything, because if he wasn't as broken as he made me, I wouldn't have my two children or my husband.

I'd still be that twenty-one year old, who held onto her insecurities, hurting herself more than anyone ever could.

So, Thank you Tom for everything you didn't do and thank you for everything you did.

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So yeah, that's the ending.

Thank you all for the support on this story! It means a lot to me ❤

This was really hard to end tbh. I had several options and at one point I wrote that she slept with Harrison and ended up with Tom in the end, but that wouldn't have been good.

Also, I wanted to know what you guys think about me making an excerpt book where I put chapters or sections of stories I have written, because there are probably a lot of stories I will never publish, but there are parts I'd like to share. It would be like a imagine book, but with premade characters and won't involve the reader.