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a r e f l e c t i o n of 2017

so.... i'm really doing this. the year is really over and this is really happening.

damn.

i would like to start off by saying, Goddamn! it's been a great year as well as a shit show of a year.

i feel as though my writing has progressed and gotten better since the beginning of this year. i now know what i want to be writing and i'm happy and good at it.

at the beginning of this year, after the orange monkey who now represents America, also known as donald trump, was sworn into office, i'm sure many of you remember his first act as president was. on January 27th, 2017, also known as my birthday, the orange monkey declared his first Muslim ban in America. It's fucking annoying and terrible, but they repealed it (although we're currently going through one.)

but let's not forget the good times as well -- Camila Cabello was finally beginning to be a solo artist. all the music she came out with this year has been fucking AMAZING AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR HER ALBUM TO COME OUT IN 12 DAYS!

now, talking from a personal stance, I was grounded February 24th of this year. as crazy as it sounds, I liked being grounded. I was always on my mom's laptop and writing stories here on wattpad. this book was actually a result of being grounded. I was really fuckin bored and read some arranged marriage fanfics and decided to write my own. and now, I can't thank you guys enough for almost TWO THOUSAND READS!!! I can't believe how many reads this book has amassed in such a short time span. a million times a thank you♡

also, the vibes were really fuckin nice. I remember 'There'sNothing Holdin Me Back' came out and I was really fuckin happy. And 'Despacito' came out and everyone lost their shit.

but, we must also remember all the horrible attacks of terror happening in Europe because we can't let those vices be forgotten. What happened at Ariana Grande's concert in Manchester could've happened to anyone. shit, Shawn had his concert there just DAYS after.

aside from the terrible things this year, I just love how everyone has come together through common interests such as music and how great the music this year was. we had Ed come out with 'Divide', we had Taylor with 'reputation', Niall with 'Flicker', and the list goes on and on.

honestly, this has been one of the most eventful years I've had. I got to travel to Jordan and Palestine. In Jordan, I got to see my dad's side and got to see my brother get married there. It was honestly pretty fuckin awesome to dance my ass off my with my family. and in Palestine, I got to see how much life there is different than living in my Chicago suburbs. Although visiting a country under military rule/occupation is always ideal, I had a fucking amazing time. I got to visit my cousins who I haven't seen in 8 years, as well as my grandmother, who is very near and dear to my heart. I had the amazing privilege to visit the holy city of Jerusalem and the Old City, before the orange monkey declared it the 'capital of israel'. And another thing, in the words of Linda Sarsour, 'if all it takes is a declaration, then I declare Jerusalem as the eternal capital of Palestine.' Trump had no right, whatsoever to say that. Jerusalem is where I draw the line! As a Palestinian and granddaughter of a Jerusalemite and victim of the Deir Yassin Massacre, what Trump did was unexcusiably wrong! He can't give an international zone to a group of people who are occupying another people's land. the Israeli Zionists have been occupying the Palestinian lands since 1948, and mass murdering their people. I've honestly lost my tolerance for the people who support them or say they have the 'right to defend'. HOW THE FUCK CAN THEY DEFEND THEMSELVES WHEN THEY'RE FIGHTING DEFENSELESS PEOPLE WITH NO AID FROM NEIGHBORING COUNTRIES?!?! THEY USE FUCKING STONES AND SLINGSHOTS TO ATTACK LIKE WHAT THE FUCK?!?!

okay, I need to take a deep breath; im getting ahead of myself. it's just that I'm passionate about this topic and I'm ready to come for anyone who wants to come for me. so don't fucking try me.

anywho...

I'm incredibly to have been able to travel and visit my family in Palestine. I remember the first time I've bawled my eyes out during that trip was when I found out I couldn't go to Palestine for almost two weeks and that i was stuck in Jordan with nothing to do. but thankfully, I had some fun there.

I don't really know where the fuck to keep going because it's almost midnight here and like yeah...

but I just feel as though that, although this year has had its share of being a shit show and being pretty fuckin amazing, we have a whole lot ahead of us. if you honestly hated 2017, remember that 2018 is literally a few minutes away, and you have a clean slate to start fresh and that you shouldn't dwell on the shit in your life. and if you loved 2017, remember that 2018 is a  few minutes away and that you can make new memories and spend time with your loved ones and do whatever the fuck you want.

I honestly don't know what the fuck to say anytmore, an I'm sorry if you fucking hated this because I'm fucking tired and can't wait to sleep so yeah.....

BUT HAPPY NEW YEAR BABE'S I FUCKIN LOVE YOU ALL♡♡♡♡

- Mari ♤