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a r e f l e c t i o n of 2018

okay okay okay, before everyone gets mad at me, I PROMISE IM GOING TO UPDATE!! it's just that i've been through a lot and have been pretty busy during break! i know that's not an excuse but that's just how it is! i DID however, start a draft and i'm pretty sure the book is ending soon with maybe less than ten chapters i don't exactly know, but that may be just how it is.

okay, onto the reflection!!

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okay first of all WOW 2018 is actually ending. it's been a hell of a year. i also can't believe that just last year i was writing a reflection for 2017... that's crazy!!

this year has been fucking fantastic as well as shitty. for one, i turned 14 this year (i know i'm pretty young, but i'm turning 15 next month so i'm chillin!!) and i also graduated 8th grade, and i also started high school!!

to be honest, high school is pretty chill and i like it. i feel more independent bc teachers don't care as much and don't baby you like they do in grade school.

since starting high school, i've made lots of new friends bc i ditched all my old friends and went to a different high school. i didn't move, but it's just that i live in something called the "option-zone" meaning i get to choose between two schools. i live closer to the school i go to now, so it was the obvious choice. ANYWAYS, i've also started liking this sophomore who is SO fucking hot. he's in my spanish class and he's just so funny and hot. bUT, i decided to be an over dramatic bitch and start some shit with him over a PENCIL! can you believe it? to be honest, i don't even know why i did that. it was so small and UGH! anyways, the next day after the pencil incident my teacher yelled at us for fighting again and said we weren't allowed to talk to each other.

fast forward one week, we fight again and my teacher said if we talk to each other again that we're having a conference with our parents and the dean. that SAME DAY during eight period, i get called down to the deans office and have to say what happened from my perspective. anyways, even after everything that happened i still have the audacity to like him. i guess that really shows the type of person i am.

anyways, can i just say that i appreciate all the music from this year? like honestly, camila dropped an album, bea miller dropped an album, madison beer dropped an album, SHAWN FUXKING MENDES DROPPED AN ALBUM!! bebe rexha dropped and album, ariana grande dropped and album and a fucking bop called "thank u, next" and honestly i couldn't be more grateful. OH, and lana del rey dropped a song called "venice bitch" that i fucking love with all my heart despite being almost 10 minutes long.

this year i fell in love with more rock and alternative music whereas last year i loved EDM and country.

my top 5 (more like 6 because there are 2 songs that are tied for first place) songs for this year are:

- venice bitch by lana del rey / everything by lifehouse (i swear these songs can put me to sleep)
- outside by bea miller
- a world alone by lorde
- without you by lana del rey
- bad reputation by shawn mendes

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anyways, as much as i loved this year and what it has brought me, i also hated it because honestly donald trump is a misogynistic and inhumane piece of shit. he put actual CHILDREN in interment camps at the borders and kids have died on his watch. he made children go through trials without lawyers and without their parents. can you imagine going through that at 4 years old? my nephew is 4 years old and the thought just scares me. also, he appointed brett kavanaugh as a supreme court justice EVEN THOUGH he raped someone. honestly christine ford is so brave for going against him in court. she should have won that case. i swear this system is fucked.

anyone who supports trump can suck my ass because i won't be tolerant towards you. i'm so thankful that we survived 2 years under trumps presidency and have 2 years to go.

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this year in terms of writing (for all books) i know i haven't done much. and i know i should do better. you guys deserve that much. i want to try and work out a posting schedule but i'd have to put thought into when i would post and how often i would post because i do need to focus on school. after all, freshman year sets the basis for you in school (i don't know if i said that correctly haha).

i honestly love writing. it's just a fun way to get things out of my head and put it into words. i come up with lots is fake scenarios that i know will never happen but it's just fun.

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i'm really grateful for the year i've had. i'm so blessed to be able to have gone to canada this summer and visit the niagara falls with my family and my cousins. it was fun having a road trip right before school started. while it got boring having my ass stuck in a seat for HOURS going through different states it was really fun. i slept a lot, listened to music, read, and watched some netflix. i also likes new york. although we didn't go to the city, buffalo was really fun.

this year, i had many new experiences that i'm grateful for and this has honestly been one of my favourite years along with 2017.

although i'm sad the year is ending, i know that all good things must come to an end and i'm excited for the future. i'm excited for what next year has to offer and i'm especially excited to be turning 15!!

happy new year, loves! enjoy it! i love you all and i promise a new chapter will be coming soon!!

happy 2019!!
- mari